Rose in BC Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 It's hard because on one hand I'm sad. On the other we have two other kids who deserve a happy celebration. Christmas was a similar struggle. My heart breaks with love for my boy who can't feel that love. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Flowing Brook Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 :grouphug: I am sorry. I can't imagine what you are going through. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
OneStepAtATime Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jrn Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
*Alyssa* Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lakeside Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: I'm so sorry for what you're going through, Rose. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
elfgivas Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: your poor momma's heart. the first Easter was a heartbreak for Mary before it was anything else.... and it happened in the midst of the passover celebrations..... i just wish you didn't need to feel that at this level of hurt.... ann Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kathy in Richmond Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mom in High Heels Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 Awww, Rose. I'm so sorry. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lawana Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jean in Newcastle Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 I'm sorry, Rose. I pray that he knows deep down that he is loved and that some day he can let you know that. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cindy in FL. Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 I am so sorry, Rose. Praying for you and your family. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fraidycat Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GinaPagnato Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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Heatherwith4 Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 I'm so sorry, Rose. Praying that he will see how much you love him one day. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TammyinTN Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 I'm praying for you. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Twigs Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jen in NY Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 Thinking of you, Rose. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
NorthwestMom Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
idnib Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 I'm sorry you're going through this. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mama Geek Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 :grouphug: Rose Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rmtzc2009 Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 Praying for you Rose! :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rose in BC Posted April 18, 2014 Author Share Posted April 18, 2014 Thank you everyone. It is tough and I know people think we should just move on but it's hard...my boy is only 16. And I don't know much about how he's doing ...actually nothing for the past month. I'm hoping he might appear at my niece's or sister's house over the weekend. They have an open door policy for him. He last visited them about a month ago. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Truscifi Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: I can't imagine. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Corraleno Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 I'm so sorry, Rose. :crying: I hope you hear some positive news about him soon. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Chris in VA Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 I liked your post only because I am glad he does have somewhere to go if he wants to. It's so hard to have hope AND let go. :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RebeccaS Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Danestress Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 Thank you everyone. It is tough and I know people think we should just move on but it's hard...my boy is only 16. . How could anyone say that? That is just .... not rooted in the reality of being a parent. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Starr Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rosie_0801 Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
trulycrabby Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 I am sorry, Rose. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StephanieZ Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 Oh, Rose. The first thing I do when visiting this board (at least daily) is to scroll through looking for a post by you. I think of you and your son and your family so often, and my heart is so sad for your pain. I can't fathom what you are going through every day. I know there are hundreds of others of us here who similarly hope and pray for your comfort and the wellness of your entire family. Where is your son living? Has he still been in school? Is he with his birth-relatives? I remember so well your first posts when your son found his birth mom on facebook, and I watched from afar as you and your family struggled so hard to do the best possible job loving your son that you could. I don't think anyone in their right mind should tell you to "move on" or "get past it". No parent gets past their child being in pain or lost to them. Of course you must soldier forward to have the best life you can for all of your sakes, but the loss and pain will always be there, too, as will your love for your son. No one can or should tell you how to cope, as it is something that is so personal and unique to each person and situation. You just keep doing the best you can, and that is all anyone can do. ((((hugs)))) to all of you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mumto2 Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BigMamaBird Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 I'm so sorry, Rose. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
aggieamy Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 Rose - I am so so sorry. I wish I had a "make everything better" button. If I did I would mail it to you. ((HUGS)) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Anne in CA Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 My family will pray for yours. Yes, the remaining children you have do deserve not just a pleasant holiday, but also to know that your are hurting but that you are there for them too. It's okay to be a little sad. Your remaining children are learning from your gracious example how to deal with the heartbreaks of life. My guess is that they are going to be better Christians and plain old better people for your example. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lynn Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lmrich Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 You are so brave and loving. I hope and pray you feel peace. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Spryte Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 Sending you warmth and strength. You're in our thoughts often here, too, and DH often asks after you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KayT Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 I am so sorry Rose. :crying: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Eagle Posted April 19, 2014 Share Posted April 19, 2014 Thinking of you and your family this holiday weekend. I hope your son is safe and that you hear from him soon. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rose in BC Posted April 19, 2014 Author Share Posted April 19, 2014 Well you won't believe this. I just hung up phone after speaking for 2 minutes and 58 seconds to my son. He called and asked to speak to his brother (who isn't home). I was so stunned at the call I didn't know what to say and he didn't really want to talk to me (although secretly I'm going to believe he wanted to talk to me). I was able to tell him I love him before he cut me off. I kind of feel stunned at the moment. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
M&M Posted April 19, 2014 Share Posted April 19, 2014 I am so glad you had the chance to hear his voice and let him know he's loved. Hugs to you Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gracesteacher Posted April 19, 2014 Share Posted April 19, 2014 Yay!!!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rose in BC Posted April 19, 2014 Author Share Posted April 19, 2014 Thanks. I feel very emotional right now. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Starr Posted April 19, 2014 Share Posted April 19, 2014 Oh Rose, as shocking as it was, what a blessing! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rose in BC Posted April 19, 2014 Author Share Posted April 19, 2014 His voice sounds different. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Starr Posted April 19, 2014 Share Posted April 19, 2014 It must be so hard, his continuing to grow up, away from you. I'm sorry. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
OK Family Posted April 19, 2014 Share Posted April 19, 2014 Rose, You are a strong woman, who obviously loves her boy. I pray God will soften his heart so that he can realize that. Hugs to you and your family. I am thankful you got to at least hear his voice! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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