Only me Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 My mom was diagnosed with cancer 4 years ago and had been through several rounds of chemo. Her cancer is still growing and now she is on some kind of hormone treatment. She had been in a lot of pain this week. She went to the doctor today and the doctor was very concerned. They did a CT and we should get the results tomorrow. I've been prone to panic attacks lately due to this and a lot of other stressors. Tonight I have a very bad feeling. The kind where I'm afraid I'm going to get a call tonight with bad news. She is at home and not at the hospital but I have this horrible feeling that something is going to happen tonight. I'm sure it's just because I'm very worried. My husband and kids are sleeping so I have no one to talk to. I would really appreciate prayers for my mom. I know she probably doesn't have long but I was hoping for at least 6 months. No one never knows but this feeling I have tonight is awful. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Catwoman Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 Praying for both you and your mom. :grouphug: I'm so very sorry that you have to go through this. I wish your mom could get well again. :( Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GSOchristie Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 praying :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lilaclady Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 Praying for you and your mom. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
school17777 Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 (((Hugs))) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mabeline Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 Hugs Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Harriet Vane Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mom2myboys Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 Prayers and ((hugs)) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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Starr Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 I'm so sorry. :grouphug: I'm praying for your mom and that your anxiety goes away. Waiting for news is always so hard. :( Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
readinmom Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 :grouphug: Praying for you, your mom, and your family... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Twigs Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
myfunnybunch Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Praying for you and your mom. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Isabella Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 You poor thing....a gentle hug for you :grouphug: I hope you get the time you need with your mom. Try to rest now. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Seasider Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 Praying now that you are asleep. Psalm 4 ihas wonderful verses to memorize so you can focus on them on those sleepless nights. It helps divert the mind from worry. Prayers for your mom. Things will be better in the morning, because you will know then exactly what you're facing. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TravelingChris Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 Praying for both of you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Catwoman Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 Still thinking of you and hoping you're getting some sleep. :grouphug: Please let us know how you're doing tomorrow -- and hopefully let us know that your phone never rang. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lollie010 Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 Praying. It's so hard at night when you have a loved one suffering. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Chelle in MO Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 I'm so sorry. I know the agony of waiting for a loved one's test results. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Only me Posted February 21, 2014 Author Share Posted February 21, 2014 Still awake but thankfully no call. Hopefully will be able to find out more a bit later this morning. Thank you for all your prayers and good thoughts. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ausmumof3 Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 Praying for you... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mama Geek Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 praying for you :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Donna Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 Praying for you both. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
emzhengjiu Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 Praying for your mom and you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lizzie in Ma Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 I am sorry, it is so hard. :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PrincessMommy Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 praying that you can take whatever news comes with a peaceful mind and avoid a panic attack. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
datgh Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 Went through this with my Dad last year. It is exhausting. Praying! :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
East Coast Sue Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 Praying for you and your mom. I hope you were able to get some rest and let your dh know that you need his reassurance/comfort too. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Halftime Hope Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 So many others have said beautifully what I, too, wish for you. She is so blessed to have you in her corner. Please keep us posted, it really does help--at least it did for me. :-) If there is a bad news call in the future, and if you haven't already, you and she may wish to consider hospice sooner, rather than later. In my MIL's case, I'm sure that having access to the meds provided through hospice would have had kept her much more comfortable sooner (easing her labored breathing) and would have allowed her to live a better life in months we had with her. Wishing you comfort and strength today, and sending a gentle hug for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MercyA Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 Praying for you and your mom. :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Please let us know how you are doing when you have a chance. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Only me Posted February 21, 2014 Author Share Posted February 21, 2014 Well she had a rough night pain wise and of course was also dreading the call from the doctor. I'm wondering if I was sensing some of her anxiety as well. It seems like often when she has a bad night I have a bad night. We already knew her cancer was metastatic and throughout her abdomen and liver. I guess the doctor was worried about a clot, which she doesn't have so that is one good thing. Unfortunately the cancer has spread further in the liver. She is seeing a radialogist on Monday to talk about radiation directly to the tumor in the liver. She had endometrial cancer to begin with and had radiation then but the original chemo didn't help and it came back again. I don't think they will try anymore chemo as they have pretty much tried everything. I am thankful that at least they haven't given up since they are trying the radiation. I think they are doing it more for her comfort as they know they can't cure it at this point. She is not completely bedridden but has to rest often but I just have a bad feeling that it will the kind of thing where she will go downhill quickly. I appreciate all of your prayers and good thoughts. May I also ask for prayers for my dad as he is having a rough time with this also. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
umsami Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 My Dad's been in and out of the hospital with leukemia, other bone marrow issues, and related infections. Pretty much every time I had a feeling like you, he was having a rough time. I'm kind of far away, so what I would do is picture him surrounded, enveloped by God's love. God's love all around him, flowing through him, comforting him. I kind of figured if he was going to pass that night, that was the best I could do. I'm sorry about what your family is going through. I will keep you, your Mom and your Dad in my prayers. I agree with asking the oncologist about hospice. People often last longer in hospice than continuing to fight. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
trulycrabby Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 Sending prayers to you and your mom. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
meena Posted February 21, 2014 Share Posted February 21, 2014 Praying for your family! :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Chelle in MO Posted February 22, 2014 Share Posted February 22, 2014 I'm sorry she had a rough night. I hope tonight is better and that the radiation helps her! :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
datgh Posted February 22, 2014 Share Posted February 22, 2014 So sorry you are going through this. It is so hard! I second what others have said about getting hospice involved. Hospice was wonderful with my Mom and Dad when my Dad was at the end of his life last year. They also payed a lot of attention to Mom and her needs even after Dad was gone. Hospice can also get the meds at the dosages needed for comfort which a regular doctor won't do. My Dad was very comfortable with their help. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Joyofsixreboot Posted February 22, 2014 Share Posted February 22, 2014 Hugs and prayers. It's a horrible feeling. I'll add prayers for your peace. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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