GWOB Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 On April 2, 2009, I found myself weighing 184lbs. I'm only 5'2. I had been disgusted with my body for quite some time. I had my first miscarriage late Jan 06. I was completely devastated. I lost faith in my body. I hated it. It didn't help matters that I had a second miscarriage in May of that year. I was sure I was a complete failure. My body received the brunt of my frustration. I quit exercising. I turned to food for comfort. I probably drank a little too much occasionally. I found out I was pregnant again in Aug 06. I cried. I felt certain my body would fail me again. I was afraid to move. I would lie still for hours, praying I wouldn't do anything to harm the baby, because I was sure It was my fault. I went through the whole pregnancy with severe anxiety, knowing my body was a failure, waiting for the moment it would fail me again. My precious little diva princess was born without any drugs or other interventions in May 07, weighing a healthy 8lb5oz. Though my body finally came through for me, I was still caught in a cycle of self-loathing. I'm sure the constant hormonal upheaval didn't help one bit. We were dealing with dh separating from the Navy, a new baby, looking for work, parental health issues, the prospect of moving across the country, etc. I turned to my good friend food. So we moved to a place where we knew no one. We moved to an acreage way out with no real neighbors. Lots of work. I pulled my kids out of the local school Dec 08 because it just wasn't working. Dh was going through a very intensive training program at his work which caused him to work long, crazy hours. I didn't have many friends here. Needless to say, my pants size increased. I think the last straw for me was when an elderly gentleman at church asked me when I was due. If that isn't a kick in the rear, I don't know what is. I knew I needed help with weight loss. I wasn't confident enough to do it on my own. (Remember, my body was a colossal failure.) On April 2, 2009, I started Medifast. I had a friend who had wonderful results with the program. I needed something idiot-proof, and that was my answer. I had a lot of work to do before I committed to Medifast. I had to tell myself I was worth the price. (Medifast is rather costly.) I had to tell myself I was worth the work, worth the effort, worth the results. I started losing weight almost immediately. It was hard, but man it worked! I decided to add more exercise, so I started C25K. I ran my first 5K on July4 in 30:42. By the end of July, I had met my goal weight of 130lbs, which is a size 6 on me. I slowly transitioned off Medifast without gaining an ounce. I kept running. In Sept. I ran a local 5 mile race in 48:09. In Oct. I ran my first 10K in 55:02. I started training for a marathon in Dec. I ran 16 miles Monday! I woke up this morning and ran an easy 6 miles, on killer hills, with crazy wind! As I reflect back to where I was a year ago, I realize I have my confidence back. I look at my body and no longer see a blobby, flubby failure. I see strong muscles, toned calves, and my waist! I am now down to a weight I never thought I would see again. I bought a size 2 pair of pants last week. Size 2!!!!! I am going to run (waddle, shuffle, or somehow complete) a marathon one month from today! For the first time in years, I am actually proud of myself for something I did for myself. Sure, I've been proud of my mothering occasionally, or my kids, or my teaching, or taking care of my dh. But this is something just for me. I actually took time for myself, time to work on myself, just for me. It feels fabulous. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SonshineLearner Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Good for you!! I'm happy that YOU feel better! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ConnieB Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Congratulations!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jujsky Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 You SHOULD be proud of yourself. WTG, Wendi!!!!! ~Julie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LauraGB Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 :hurray::party: Here is a virtual pat on the back!! Good for you! What a wonderful and inspirational story, thanks so much for sharing it! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MelanieM Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Wendi, you're an inspiration! Thank you for sharing your story. Congratulations on being there for YOU!! :D Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BeckyFL Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 So impressive! :thumbup: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
i.love.lucy Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Wendi, CONGRATULATIONS! Your story is inspirational to me! I have what I consider A LOT of weight to lose. I've been on Medifast for a while and have lost my mo-jo for it. I've lost about 35 lbs, but still have a ways to go and got burned out and discouraged. I need to get back on the wagon and really work the program. I signed up through a center, so the cost was enormous, and I am now feeling like such a failure because I only have about 7 weeks left in my contract time and I should have lost SO MUCH more by now. But, the reality is that I can get back in there and lose what I can while I have them, and then still continue the program on my own. I have an appointment to weigh in tomorrow morning (:glare:It won't be good after about 5 weeks off) and I was just thinking this morning about skipping it. Your post was just in time today! I will keep my appointment. The piece of the puzzle that I have not yet mastered is exercise. I know I need it, I just don't wanna. I really have to tell myself that if I will just go for a walk EVERY DAY then gradually I will be able to build up more and more of a fitness level. My goal was to buy myself a bike when I had lost 50lbs, and I don't have that much farther to go to get there! Thanks again for sharing!! Good for you!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PineFarmMom Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 That was an awesome and inspiring post!!! Congrats to you!! Having just had a baby recently and feeling the same about my own body, your post thoroughly encouraged me!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Gretchen in NJ Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Wonderful! I am happy for you.:D Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
*Inna* Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Thank you for sharing this story. :001_smile: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
chickenpatty Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Good job - that is so awesome!! :party::party: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jennifer in MI Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Wow! What a year! Really, what a few years!!!! You are amazing and an inspiration. Good luck with your marathon and be sure to report back!! I can't wait to hear how you do. Your other race times are amazing!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Desert Rat Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Good for you! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BridgeTea Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 You rock, Wendi! Way to take care of yourself! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kebo Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Fabulous! You should be very proud of what you have accomplished. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
peachskittles Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 That is so amazing!! Congratulations on all your hard work. Your story is really motivating. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Heather in the Kootenays Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Way to go. I'm struggling with those issues myself and need this kind of inspiration. Thanks. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mothersweets Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Wow! fantastic- you rock!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dirty ethel rackham Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Wow! Just Wow! And here I was celebrating a 3 lb loss at WW. Congratulations! You are an inspiration. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tress Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Wendi, you are an inspiration! You can be very proud of yourself! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kewb Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Congratulations! That is a lot to be proud of. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
babysparkler Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 :thumbup: That's wonderful! Good for you!!!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Night Elf Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Awesome job on doing something for yourself! We all deserve more than we believe sometimes. Congrats! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MariannNOVA Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 You are to be commended! I LOVE Medifast --Congrats!:grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
momofkhm Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 A mantra I like, now that I've done a marathon: There will be days when I can't run a marathon, but there will be a lifetime of knowing that I did! It will hurt. You will walk funny for days. But the feeling of I've done it! Is incredible!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KristenS Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Awesome! Way to go! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kitten18 Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Congratulations! That is AWESOME!!! Thanks for sharing your story.:) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lovemywhirlygirls Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Wendi ROCKS! Woo Hoo!!! Congratulations! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GWOB Posted April 2, 2010 Author Share Posted April 2, 2010 :blush: Thanks guys. I'm humbled. I posted this because I knew a lot of women struggle with weight loss. If I can inspire someone to continue I am doing fine. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kalypso Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 You are awesome!! Congratulations!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mrs Mungo Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Congratulations!! :party: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
King Alfred Academy Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Wow! You are an inspiration!!! What a fantastic success story. Thank you so much for sharing it with all of us! Good luck running your marathon!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Strawberry Queen Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Wow! Thanks for sharing your story. I woke up this morning after a week of feeling kind of icky, and the first thought that went through my head was that I didn't want to eat healthy today. Your post is encouraging me to keep going towards my goal. Some weeks will be icky, but that doesn't have to determine the rest of my month or year. Thanks:001_smile::001_smile::001_smile: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lightly Salted Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Way to go! :D Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jean in Newcastle Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 Good job! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Pamela H in Texas Posted April 2, 2010 Share Posted April 2, 2010 I also want to say thanks. I started in August (not Medifast) and loved losing weight. I felt good and was so proud of myself. When I made it under 200, I said that I would never make it over that again. Since, I've bounced around a little higher than I wanted, but have never made it to 200 again :) Anyway, but I'm SO stuck. And it's SO frustrating. I do believe the cost of any program IS worth it if it is what will work for an individual but nothing is within my reach right now (hubby is unemployed). I would so exercise if I could but I'm in a bad spot physically right now and have difficulty walking across the house (but can do it! so I'll hold onto that!). But as I read your post I thought...hmmm, I could do this. Though you lost most of yours in 4 months, if I think of it as a year, I still have til August 26th. That is a long time away. I could probably be REALLY close to goal, if not there, by then. I just have to stay motivated to keep trying! And really, if I didn't do it by then, Dec isn't that far off. I certainly can do it by then. I can do this. I should do this. I'm WORTH IT! Thanks for a little extra boost. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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