Penny from Tenny Posted September 22, 2010 Share Posted September 22, 2010 Well, he was doing so well after his surgery...sitting in his chair on Friday and Saturday, watching ballgames, and being very responsive. And then he woke up on Sunday and things were just "different". He couldn't move his head because it was so stiff, no talking, lethargic, vomiting began, and then the 5 minute grandmal seizure later that night. I was devastated. And the seizures continued...this is not how it was supposed to be. Turns out he had developed chemical meningitis. Treatment began and we didn't see any improvements until late yesterday. He is back up in his chair today and we are hopeful and prayerful that this will continue and that he can possibly go home this weekend. The meningitis will take a week or two to clear up. They are still saying that we shouldn't make any inferences for longterm seizure control based on what we are seeing now, but it is hard. I need to write down some things (thoughts that are by no means profound) that can help me put some words to my thoughts: It is very hard to watch your child suffer - surely God himself is aquainted with our sorrows. God's plans are definitely not my plans. I don't serve God because of what he does, but because of who He is. But sometimes I "imagine" that I would like him to DO what seems reasonable to me....not really, just evidence of my utter dependence on him and how truly arrogant I can be to pretend to tell the God of the universe what he is doing wrong. (I truly am glad that He is in control) Our 12 year old said as he and dad were having family devotions around the table based on our study of James, "You know, if God didn't use our suffering to teach us things, He would be mean.". Hmmmm.....hate that I missed out on that discussion. In light of eternity, difficulties are temporary and should always be viewed through the lens of who God is. When I don't, my view of God isn't what it ought to be and it is easy to become discouraged. We really don't have the strength to endure without his supernatural enabling. When I'm weak, He really is strong. Knowing people are praying for you is a huge encouragement. Thanks again for praying! ....and for letting me ramble. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Brigitte Posted September 22, 2010 Share Posted September 22, 2010 :grouphug: I am so sorry you all are going through this. It must be very hard on you to see your son go through so much. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lulubelle Posted September 22, 2010 Share Posted September 22, 2010 :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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BMW Posted September 22, 2010 Share Posted September 22, 2010 Your thoughts are amazing. I will continue to pray. Thank you so much for sharing. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
elegantlion Posted September 22, 2010 Share Posted September 22, 2010 :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jean in Newcastle Posted September 22, 2010 Share Posted September 22, 2010 (edited) :grouphug: What a tough time, Penny. Praying for you and for Jonathan. :grouphug: P.S. Your honesty in what you are going through has touched me. Edited September 22, 2010 by Jean in Newcastle Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stacia Posted September 22, 2010 Share Posted September 22, 2010 :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ali in OR Posted September 22, 2010 Share Posted September 22, 2010 Thanks for sharing your thoughts as you go through this. They touched me. Praying for healing for Jonathan. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
chickenpatty Posted September 22, 2010 Share Posted September 22, 2010 :grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
*~Tina~* Posted September 22, 2010 Share Posted September 22, 2010 Oh Penny :grouphug: I'm SO sorry for this difficult time you are going through. I pray with you that this is no indicator of future seizure control and I praise His faithfulness alongside you. My dd has a seizure disorder and I know how painful and difficult it is to watch your "baby" suffer in that way. God Bless you and your family, and bring healing to your son. :grouphug: Blessings, ¸.·´ .·´¨¨)) ((¸¸.·´ .·´ -:¦:-Tina ~ -:¦:- ((¸¸.·´* http://seasonsoflearning.blogspot.com/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kym Posted September 22, 2010 Share Posted September 22, 2010 Thank you for sharing your thoughts. You have a beautiful family. May God continue to heal and protect and bless all of you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kwickimom Posted September 22, 2010 Share Posted September 22, 2010 :grouphug: I will be praying for your son and your family everyday. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mrs Mungo Posted September 22, 2010 Share Posted September 22, 2010 :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kim in Appalachia Posted September 22, 2010 Share Posted September 22, 2010 :grouphug: Beautiful thoughts. Your family is still in my prayers. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ktgrok Posted September 22, 2010 Share Posted September 22, 2010 praying. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Parrothead Posted September 22, 2010 Share Posted September 22, 2010 Thank for updating us. I agree with the medicos. Wait until the meningitis is gone before making any final decisions on the outcome of the surgery. I so sorry about the meningitis on top of everything else J has had to go through recently. :grouphug: thoughts and prayers for your and yours. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Gratia271 Posted September 22, 2010 Share Posted September 22, 2010 Well, he was doing so well after his surgery...sitting in his chair on Friday and Saturday, watching ballgames, and being very responsive. And then he woke up on Sunday and things were just "different". He couldn't move his head because it was so stiff, no talking, lethargic, vomiting began, and then the 5 minute grandmal seizure later that night. I was devastated. And the seizures continued...this is not how it was supposed to be. Turns out he had developed chemical meningitis. Treatment began and we didn't see any improvements until late yesterday. He is back up in his chair today and we are hopeful and prayerful that this will continue and that he can possibly go home this weekend. The meningitis will take a week or two to clear up. They are still saying that we shouldn't make any inferences for longterm seizure control based on what we are seeing now, but it is hard. I need to write down some things (thoughts that are by no means profound) that can help me put some words to my thoughts: It is very hard to watch your child suffer - surely God himself is aquainted with our sorrows. God's plans are definitely not my plans. I don't serve God because of what he does, but because of who He is. But sometimes I "imagine" that I would like him to DO what seems reasonable to me....not really, just evidence of my utter dependence on him and how truly arrogant I can be to pretend to tell the God of the universe what he is doing wrong. (I truly am glad that He is in control) Our 12 year old said as he and dad were having family devotions around the table based on our study of James, "You know, if God didn't use our suffering to teach us things, He would be mean.". Hmmmm.....hate that I missed out on that discussion. In light of eternity, difficulties are temporary and should always be viewed through the lens of who God is. When I don't, my view of God isn't what it ought to be and it is easy to become discouraged. We really don't have the strength to endure without his supernatural enabling. When I'm weak, He really is strong. Knowing people are praying for you is a huge encouragement. Thanks again for praying! ....and for letting me ramble. Your strength and faith are amazing. Your son is wise beyond his years. Watching children suffer is the worst thing to endure. :grouphug: We have had many conversations in our home lately about the nature of God in relation to the seemingly endless hardships in our lives during the past year. How can God be good and allow so much suffering? I never thought my children would need to ask these kinds of questions and encounter these painful realities at a young age, but it is what it is. I will continue to lift up all of you in prayer for peace and for complete recovery for your son. Thank you for sharing these beautiful words of faith and encouragement. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rosie_0801 Posted September 22, 2010 Share Posted September 22, 2010 :grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Remudamom Posted September 22, 2010 Share Posted September 22, 2010 I'm so sorry. Praying. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Penny from Tenny Posted September 25, 2010 Author Share Posted September 25, 2010 The chemical meningitis has really set Jonathan's recovery back. He has had a flare up in his seizures from it and is in quite a bit of pain also. At this point I don't even have a guess as to how much longer he will be in the hospital. I'm going home today to be with the kids and dh will stay with him. The kids at home are feeling the stress and I hope to go ride bikes with them or just do something fun. Thanks for praying. I remain prayerfully hopeful. Penny Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Starr Posted September 25, 2010 Share Posted September 25, 2010 I am so sorry! :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MamaT Posted September 25, 2010 Share Posted September 25, 2010 :grouphug: Praying for your family. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jean in Newcastle Posted September 25, 2010 Share Posted September 25, 2010 Continuing to pray, Penny. I hope that you can recharge while with your other children. Your dh needs this special time with Jonathan too. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Heatherwith4 Posted September 25, 2010 Share Posted September 25, 2010 :grouphug: still praying, Penny. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Penny from Tenny Posted September 25, 2010 Author Share Posted September 25, 2010 Continuing to pray, Penny. I hope that you can recharge while with your other children. Your dh needs this special time with Jonathan too. You are right - he told Jonathan he wanted him to feel better so they could watch football together today. Unfortunately when he stayed with him on Thurs. night he had 8 grandmal seizures -not that he didn't handle it well, I just hated it for them both!. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
simka2 Posted September 25, 2010 Share Posted September 25, 2010 :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Thank you for your honesty! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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Teachin'Mine Posted September 25, 2010 Share Posted September 25, 2010 Thank you for sharing your beautiful faith. :grouphug: Praying for Jonathan, for you, and for your family. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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