ktgrok Posted December 21, 2015 Share Posted December 21, 2015 Nothing major wrong, just having an introvert/sensitive person meltdown, lol. 4 straight days of social stuff...walking all around downtown Orlando, attending the theatre, caroling in a nursing home, lunch out with a group, three trips to the post office, three trips to walmart, one to Aldi, one to Walgreens, one to Trader Joes, a men's clothing store to have my son fitted for a tux, breakfast with a friend, and then today driving 3 hours round trip to my mom's house to make christmas cookies with my two littles and my two nieces (same ages as my kids). To top it off I got a call today that I have skin cancer on the back of my knee that needs to be removed. Oh, and I suck at logistics, and Christmas is nothing BUT logistics it seems. And then I mess stuff up because I'm just not good at it and then people give me a hard time and darn it, I'm trying my best. Maybe I can get a seasonal prescription for ADHD meds? Or xanax? Or both? 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Critterfixer Posted December 21, 2015 Share Posted December 21, 2015 That schedule is giving this introvert hives. :grouphug: and lots, and lots of chocolate and alone time. 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ktgrok Posted December 21, 2015 Author Share Posted December 21, 2015 That schedule is giving this introvert hives. :grouphug: and lots, and lots of chocolate and alone time. thanks. Can't do the lots of chocolate, but some Twinnings Christmas tea and PBS helped last night. Hoping it works again tonight. Pretty sure I've past social hangover and am about to lapse into a social coma. Oh,and did I mention I'm due for my period any minute? 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Catwoman Posted December 21, 2015 Share Posted December 21, 2015 :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TammyS Posted December 21, 2015 Share Posted December 21, 2015 I would hug you, but more social interaction probably isn't what you need. Instead, I'm wrapping you in psychic insulation. 7 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted December 21, 2015 Share Posted December 21, 2015 (edited) That sucks, I'm sorry :( You need hugs and carb free, calorie free chocolate. If you haven't tried it already Republic of Tea has some amazing cake teas like Caramel Vanilla and Cocoa Coconut that we absolutely fabulous with a little sugar free sweetener and cream. Those save me on crap days. Edited December 21, 2015 by Arctic Mama Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted December 21, 2015 Share Posted December 21, 2015 Here's a thought - can you go to Starbucks for a an appropriate drink and take a good fluff book with you? I'm having way less of 'A Day' than you but decompressing with a book keeps me sane and helps me reset when I'm maxed out and drained. Escapism is a good thing ;) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ktgrok Posted December 21, 2015 Author Share Posted December 21, 2015 Here's a thought - can you go to Starbucks for a an appropriate drink and take a good fluff book with you? I'm having way less of 'A Day' than you but decompressing with a book keeps me sane and helps me reset when I'm maxed out and drained. Escapism is a good thing ;) Even going to starbucks would be more social than I have left, but the idea of a book is a good one. I should go download one to my kindle. And yes, books keep me sane, the cheapest vacation there is :) 5 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lllll Posted December 21, 2015 Share Posted December 21, 2015 :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Joyofsixreboot Posted December 21, 2015 Share Posted December 21, 2015 ((((Hug)))) from a far away introvert vantage point. I am not good at the logistics either. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ktgrok Posted December 21, 2015 Author Share Posted December 21, 2015 I tried to get some quiet in the bedroom and my husband kept trying to talk to me. I shushed him and he got offended and left. He's keeping a wide berth. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Critterfixer Posted December 21, 2015 Share Posted December 21, 2015 I'm thinking of taking the laptop to bed with me and watching Sense and Sensibility, and having some hot chocolate with that. But Lady Grey tea would be good too. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted December 21, 2015 Share Posted December 21, 2015 I tried to get some quiet in the bedroom and my husband kept trying to talk to me. I shushed him and he got offended and left. He's keeping a wide berth. Smart man! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Seasider Posted December 21, 2015 Share Posted December 21, 2015 I felt that way after a big Thanksgiving and multiple activities during the first weeks of December. The result has been/will be a very (emphasize very) low key Christmas. Sparse decorations, easy meals, few/small but great gifts, mostly siblings enjoying each other's company after going different directions all semester. I am really taking it easy, because I simply cannot muster up the mojo to do more. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freesia Posted December 21, 2015 Share Posted December 21, 2015 I tried to get some quiet in the bedroom and my husband kept trying to talk to me. I shushed him and he got offended and left. He's keeping a wide berth.Man, this happens to me, too! Only, he gets offended but stays and then the younger two children notice that no adult is in their orbit, so they find us in the bedroom and start bouncing on my bed. Then I say something about how I came in to be alone and I can't be alone if half the family is in my room and dh gets more offended. And then I not only need to be alone MORE, but I have to solve problems with dh when if everyone had just left me ALONE I could have gotten myself together. Dh needs to learn the wide berth thing! 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MerryAtHope Posted December 22, 2015 Share Posted December 22, 2015 That's WAY too busy! I hope things lighten up soon (and I hope the skin cancer removal will be no big deal.) Everything at once IS overwhelming. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
8circles Posted December 22, 2015 Share Posted December 22, 2015 I was going to say "ditto" until the cancer bit. This is always a difficult time of year for me for this reason. Wishing you all the alone time you need. & good thoughts your way for the cancer. Hugs, hun. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ktgrok Posted December 22, 2015 Author Share Posted December 22, 2015 Thanks. Oh, and still no period. Which, up until a few months ago, was normal as I have an IUD that was mainly to keep me from having periods, due to long term anemia stuff. But after I lost about 50lbs I started having periods again...at first just spotting, then regular period, for the last few months, although light. I even had an ultrasound to check placement. Strings are missing, but it's there. Except, now I'm on day 30 and no period. Last few months it has been 25-26 days. I know the chances of me being pregnant are SO low, with an IUD, and this is probably just my weightloss messing with my hormones again, but I can't help but worry. Will have to manage to get a test tomorrow without any children asking questions, just to put my mind at ease. I'd be fine with another baby, heck I want another baby soon, but the miscarriage rate wtih an IUD is VERY high, around 50%. So yeah. Today is not good, stress wise. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Anne Posted December 22, 2015 Share Posted December 22, 2015 ((Katie)) I'm not particularly introverted, but that schedule makes me feel - URRRGGGG!!! And the skin cancer news is just icing on the proverbial cake... (((Katie))) Anne Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freesia Posted December 22, 2015 Share Posted December 22, 2015 Thanks. Oh, and still no period. Which, up until a few months ago, was normal as I have an IUD that was mainly to keep me from having periods, due to long term anemia stuff. But after I lost about 50lbs I started having periods again...at first just spotting, then regular period, for the last few months, although light. I even had an ultrasound to check placement. Strings are missing, but it's there. Except, now I'm on day 30 and no period. Last few months it has been 25-26 days. I know the chances of me being pregnant are SO low, with an IUD, and this is probably just my weightloss messing with my hormones again, but I can't help but worry. Will have to manage to get a test tomorrow without any children asking questions, just to put my mind at ease. I'd be fine with another baby, heck I want another baby soon, but the miscarriage rate wtih an IUD is VERY high, around 50%. So yeah. Today is not good, stress wise. I'm so sorry. Can you take a bath and drink chamomille tea? Definitely a book. You really need to escape for a while and stop the crazies that are swirling around you. Try not to worry about the pregnancy thing (hard I know--it's just that you can't do anything one way or another. I would be a wreck, so I get it. Try to "take the thoughts captive" and not dwell.) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ktgrok Posted December 22, 2015 Author Share Posted December 22, 2015 I'm so sorry. Can you take a bath and drink chamomille tea? Definitely a book. You really need to escape for a while and stop the crazies that are swirling around you. Try not to worry about the pregnancy thing (hard I know--it's just that you can't do anything one way or another. I would be a wreck, so I get it. Try to "take the thoughts captive" and not dwell.) Thanks. I think I'm just going to go to bed. Maybe take a benedryl first. I have been so busy I haven't been getting enough protein or fluids the last few days either, so that is making me feel yucky too. Tomorrow that is my number one priority, over everything else. And I'm definitely going to just set the worries aside. I'm actually pretty good at that usually, I think the introvert overhelming week just made that harder. But the kids are asleep, the house is quiet, and I feel better. Not great, but better. tomorrow I need to wrap presents, which is a great excuse to lock myself in my room and make the teen watch the littles for a while. And I'll try to run to the store by myself too, to get the test. Although maybe I'll have my period by then and can cross that off my list. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
frogger Posted December 22, 2015 Share Posted December 22, 2015 (edited) I tried to get some quiet in the bedroom and my husband kept trying to talk to me. I shushed him and he got offended and left. He's keeping a wide berth. I once resorted to hiding in my car. I so get it. Reading a book in my robe with coffee is my favorite. That is a lot of socializing on top of your other concerns. Edited December 22, 2015 by frogger Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
8circles Posted December 22, 2015 Share Posted December 22, 2015 I once resorted to hiding in my car. I so get it. Reading a book in my robe with coffee is my favorite. Lately, when we get home from some of the bazillion events/activities, I've just not gotten out of the car. Everyone else goes in and I get at least 10 minutes or so before the garage door opens and a child is standing there and says "OH, there you are. We were looking for you. {yells behind him}} Guys, she's still in the car!" 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Liz CA Posted December 22, 2015 Share Posted December 22, 2015 (edited) Fellow introvert agrees with the robe and hot chocolate / coffee / tea suggestion...Lock your room and pretend to wrap gifts while you listen to your favorite Christmas music. Edited December 22, 2015 by Liz CA Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jenn- Posted December 22, 2015 Share Posted December 22, 2015 I totally feel for you. I stupidly agreed to take my mom and sister shopping at the major mall in the biggest city around me and then we went to the other mall there. OMG!!! If my sister didn't need work shoes by Monday, I'd have left. Traffic was horrid, crowds were everywhere, and both my mom and sister have driving anxiety issues (hence why I was there at all), so they were gasping and carrying on while I was trying to maneuver in holiday traffic. I don't handle over stimulation well and I had to lock myself in my room after I got home for a little while. My DH may have received the brunt of some snippy comments as I made it from the door to the bedroom (seriously?!? like I wanted to deal with DD's C in math as I walked in). As for making it through Christmas itself, my Xanax will be used. I actually do have a prescription that is for situational anxiety (like when my DH is driving in large cities or high stimulation situations). My kids also know that between grandma's house with their nephews and grandma's house without their nephews, they are to be quiet. Mom HAS to have that or bad things happen (same as after really loud TKD practices). As for the IUD, take a pregnancy test ASAP. My youngest is an IUD failure baby and it was still in there. You are right that the miscarriage rate is much higher, but the sooner you know and can get the IUD out of there, the better. Not to mention, a negative should take at least one stress away. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
idnib Posted December 22, 2015 Share Posted December 22, 2015 :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: This is all too much for anyone to take on, introvert or not. Hide in the bath with a good book. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
flyingaway Posted December 22, 2015 Share Posted December 22, 2015 Too much, way, way too much. You have my full sympathies. I, too, have been one to hide in my car. Sometimes I drive to a nearby park and just stare at the sea. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lizzie in Ma Posted December 22, 2015 Share Posted December 22, 2015 Even going to starbucks would be more social than I have left, but the idea of a book is a good one. I should go download one to my kindle. And yes, books keep me sane, the cheapest vacation there is :) Books keep me sane too, an escape when I can't escape. :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ktgrok Posted December 22, 2015 Author Share Posted December 22, 2015 Thanks everyone, so glad someone gets it! No one in my life does, except maybe my teen but he won't admit it, lol. I did get quite a bit of sleep, although lots of drawn out nightmare/anxious dreams (my normal...I almost always have nightmares) and once the kids are dressed we will hit the store so I can get a test. I just have to think of some other things to buy so it isn't obvious, lol. I mean, the DD is only 5 but I don't need her asking me "what's that?" in the aisle. If I wait until the teen is up to babysit I'll be waiting a lot longer. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ktgrok Posted December 22, 2015 Author Share Posted December 22, 2015 Also, why didn't God make it so your belly buttom pops out or something the minute you get pregnant? Something easy to tell. As it is, pregnancy and PMS signs are freaking identical. Not cool. I feel like I'm going to get my period, but I felt like that yesterday too. Oh, and you know, when I was pregnant and in denial with child number 1. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ktgrok Posted December 22, 2015 Author Share Posted December 22, 2015 Oh, and I'm supposed to go to the dermatologist today for a recheck of my cysts on my vulva, and I'm going to cancel I think. I'm going there on monday anyway to have the basal cell carcinoma removed. I'm going a week after that to recheck the precancer stuff she froze off. The cysts are better. Is that awful? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
trulycrabby Posted December 22, 2015 Share Posted December 22, 2015 Oh, and I'm supposed to go to the dermatologist today for a recheck of my cysts on my vulva, and I'm going to cancel I think. I'm going there on monday anyway to have the basal cell carcinoma removed. I'm going a week after that to recheck the precancer stuff she froze off. The cysts are better. Is that awful? Do what you need to do to keep functioning. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
creekland Posted December 22, 2015 Share Posted December 22, 2015 You know... I'm reading through this thread and thinking I'd be making those trip plans to Nova Scotia if I were you... I'll offer hugs - cyber ones, so low contact, but still quite real in meaning/intent. :grouphug: :grouphug: I hope today is better for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Pam in CT Posted December 22, 2015 Share Posted December 22, 2015 :grouphug: Oh honey. That's too much. Re: escaping with a book: I tried to get some quiet in the bedroom and my husband kept trying to talk to me. I shushed him and he got offended and left. He's keeping a wide berth. When I'm past my breaking point, I retreat into the bathtub with a pile of magazines, an inflatable pillow, a glass of ice cubes with lemon and a full liter of seltzer water. My husband has been known to prance in, sit down on the toilet seat, and start CHATTING. ??? :cursing: . Dude. I advise locking the door, or a BIG SIGN. Restoration Work In Progress. Detour... 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Soror Posted December 22, 2015 Share Posted December 22, 2015 I feel your pain. I was about ready to snap off heads around Thanksgiving. Christmas season is actually not as busy here as our activities pause, I'm just starting to feel a bit decompressed. I wish I had more energy for Christmas stuff but after so much other stuff I'm wore out we actually skipped caroling and the Christmas play this year as I couldn't make myself do it. We're skipping the anual Christmas Eve celebration this year as well(for numerous reasons), which I think likely drove dh's mother to tears, I feel guilty that I'm happy to have one less thing to do. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Soror Posted December 22, 2015 Share Posted December 22, 2015 OH, and my newest "therapy" when I can't get away from the kids- put the music all the way to the front speakers and turn it up full blast- then let the kids know mommy is having a moment- don't talk to me!!!! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fairfarmhand Posted December 22, 2015 Share Posted December 22, 2015 oh I've learned that I can't do that. Bah Humbug. I dropped my dd at the nursing home with her ahg group and went to the post office. Then I sat in the car and read my book. I seldom do parties. I skipped the church Christmas cantata that I usually sing in. i even make it a point to say "I am going to the grocery store and I am going BY MYSELF. NObody can come with mama right now." Tis the season! :) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ktgrok Posted December 22, 2015 Author Share Posted December 22, 2015 oh I've learned that I can't do that. Bah Humbug. I dropped my dd at the nursing home with her ahg group and went to the post office. Then I sat in the car and read my book. I seldom do parties. I skipped the church Christmas cantata that I usually sing in. i even make it a point to say "I am going to the grocery store and I am going BY MYSELF. NObody can come with mama right now." Tis the season! :) Yup, I need to do that. I LOVE Christmas, so I tend to not realize I'm getting overwhelmed until I hit a wall. A lot of it is the shopping (too much stimulation, too much noise, too many people) and the logistics. Figuring out who gets what and making sure it gets mailed to them is HARD for me. I come from a long line of logistically challenged absent minded professor types, lol. We can explain anything, but can't remember where we put our keys, ever. Or phone. Drive past exits, etc etc. So yeah. For instance, I wrapped a ton of presents. I do it on autopilot though. So afterwards, DH starts quizzing me on what I wrapped and didn't and I couldn't remember if a particular book got wrapped. I know I wrapped books, couldn't remember which ones. And he got all "how can you not know?" I told him, I don't know, the same way you don't know that you can't put a bedspread, 3 towels, and a bathmat all in the washing machine at the same time, smarty pants. We all have things we don't know. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ktgrok Posted December 22, 2015 Author Share Posted December 22, 2015 oh, i am going to the store on my own I decided. I have to wake the teen up to have him take out the trash anyway, so since he's up I can bail and leave the littles with him. I'll tell him I need to buy more wrapping paper and such. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
elegantlion Posted December 22, 2015 Share Posted December 22, 2015 :grouphug: :grouphug: That's a lot, wishing you the best on tests and removal. And from one introvert to another, also wishing you a quiet place to decompress. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PrincessMommy Posted December 22, 2015 Share Posted December 22, 2015 Nothing major wrong, just having an introvert/sensitive person meltdown, lol. 4 straight days of social stuff...walking all around downtown Orlando, attending the theatre, caroling in a nursing home, lunch out with a group, three trips to the post office, three trips to walmart, one to Aldi, one to Walgreens, one to Trader Joes, a men's clothing store to have my son fitted for a tux, breakfast with a friend, and then today driving 3 hours round trip to my mom's house to make christmas cookies with my two littles and my two nieces (same ages as my kids). To top it off I got a call today that I have skin cancer on the back of my knee that needs to be removed. Oh, and I suck at logistics, and Christmas is nothing BUT logistics it seems. And then I mess stuff up because I'm just not good at it and then people give me a hard time and darn it, I'm trying my best. Maybe I can get a seasonal prescription for ADHD meds? Or xanax? Or both? I get it. We went from having a relaxing week with just immediate family to several family-wide functions as well as friends inviting us over too. I'm already stressing a bit. I love seeing the family, but it is people overload as we're a big family. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ktgrok Posted December 22, 2015 Author Share Posted December 22, 2015 Test was negative! Yay! And I cancelled my derm appt. I'm still a bit stressed that our bank account is lower than it has ever been, but we have some money coming in tomorrow. More, I'm stressed that DH will be stressed, but it is what it is. And he gets paid friday. Oh, and when at the bank making a transfer at the ATM the machine ate my card. I didn't have it in me to go in and get it. So I'll do that another day, lol. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lllll Posted December 22, 2015 Share Posted December 22, 2015 (edited) nm Edited December 30, 2015 by w11 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
frogger Posted December 22, 2015 Share Posted December 22, 2015 Glad to hear you have one less stress! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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