Night Elf Posted February 13, 2018 Share Posted February 13, 2018 Here's a great big :grouphug: . Sorry, I'm having another bad day, not terrible, but not good. All I keep thinking of is this is for life. And there's no turning it off to get a break. Today I told my therapist that I am walking on egg shells, scared of another bipolar episode. She said 'Oh honey, get off those egg shells. You're going to have another episode. It may be soon or it may be months away. Walk proud and be happy. That is all. 15 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jean in Newcastle Posted February 13, 2018 Share Posted February 13, 2018 ((Beth)) Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
3 ladybugs Posted February 13, 2018 Share Posted February 13, 2018 (((hugs)))) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Harriet Vane Posted February 13, 2018 Share Posted February 13, 2018 Hugs for you, Beth. I struggle with those feelings with my chronic condition as well. It is hard to accept that pain is a permanent companion. Hugs again. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ThisIsTheDay Posted February 13, 2018 Share Posted February 13, 2018 Not me, but my husband--often in a lotta, lotta, lotta, lotta pain. It sucks. ((((Beth)))) :grouphug: :grouphug: 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ravin Posted February 13, 2018 Share Posted February 13, 2018 ((hugs)) My BFF gets tired of me sending hugs like that. DD doesn't always let me even give her real, in-person hugs. It sucks that pain (physical and emotional) is such a constant companion for so many people. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mergath Posted February 13, 2018 Share Posted February 13, 2018 (((Hugs))) My dh is bipolar and I have OCD, so I feel you. Dh, after a long, long period of bad, hasn't had a manic episode in a while now, so there can be long stretches of light in the midst of the darkness. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ann.without.an.e Posted February 13, 2018 Share Posted February 13, 2018 :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
foxbridgeacademy Posted February 13, 2018 Share Posted February 13, 2018 Yeah. What really sucks is when you have a long "good" spell then the issue comes back with a vengeance. I mean I know I should be thankful for the month of little to no problems but I think a part of me had some small hope I was getting better... but I'm not. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jenny in Florida Posted February 13, 2018 Share Posted February 13, 2018 (edited) I feel guilty applying either "suffering" or "chronic illness" to my situation, but I will confess that I'm not having a great February, health-wise. Fifteen months after having my thyroid removed, we're still working on getting dosages right for my meds, which means I'm still having symptoms including palpitations and heightened anxiety. Intellectually, I know the feelings are temporary and not "real," but I'm just sick of dealing with the whole thing. So, big (gentle) hugs going out from me to everyone coping with their own stuff. Edited February 13, 2018 by Jenny in Florida Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
happi duck Posted February 13, 2018 Share Posted February 13, 2018 (hugs) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mominco Posted February 13, 2018 Share Posted February 13, 2018 :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
melmichigan Posted February 13, 2018 Share Posted February 13, 2018 (((Hugs))) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Greta Posted February 13, 2018 Share Posted February 13, 2018 :grouphug: for you and everyone on these boards suffering with a chronic condition. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IfIOnly Posted February 13, 2018 Share Posted February 13, 2018 :grouphug: :grouphug: Night Elf :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PinkyandtheBrains. Posted February 13, 2018 Share Posted February 13, 2018 <hugs> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
scoutingmom Posted February 13, 2018 Share Posted February 13, 2018 Hugs. Not having a great time myself. Sent from my SM-T530NU using Tapatalk Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TravelingChris Posted February 13, 2018 Share Posted February 13, 2018 :grouphug: To all suffering from chronic conditions. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Joules Posted February 13, 2018 Share Posted February 13, 2018 (((Hugs))). I have a host of auto-immunes disorders. I don’t know how long it’s been for you, but there is a definite grieving process with chronic illness. It comes and goes, but as time goes on you spend more and more time in the “acceptance†stage. It sounds like your therapist is trying to rush you right there, but it’s OK to spend time grieving (just try to stay out of the denial stage, particularly with bipolar.) 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Spryte Posted February 13, 2018 Share Posted February 13, 2018 (((Hugs))). I have a host of auto-immunes disorders. I don’t know how long it’s been for you, but there is a definite grieving process with chronic illness. It comes and goes, but as time goes on you spend more and more time in the “acceptance†stage. It sounds like your therapist is trying to rush you right there, but it’s OK to spend time grieving (just try to stay out of the denial stage, particularly with bipolar.) This. Hugs to you. Keep talking and writing about it. It helps with processing it. You’re not alone. I’m sure it feels that way sometimes, but you are definitely not alone. Bipolar is hard - my son has it, and it’s a struggle - but you can do this, and you have support. My own chronic illnesses have been a huge journey, lots of grieving, but with time - I hit the point that it’s just my life, and I can see the beauty in every day again. It comes and goes. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Night Elf Posted February 13, 2018 Author Share Posted February 13, 2018 (((Hugs))). I have a host of auto-immunes disorders. I don’t know how long it’s been for you, but there is a definite grieving process with chronic illness. It comes and goes, but as time goes on you spend more and more time in the “acceptance†stage. It sounds like your therapist is trying to rush you right there, but it’s OK to spend time grieving (just try to stay out of the denial stage, particularly with bipolar.) I don't think she's trying to rush me. She's an interesting character. I like how she thinks and how she explains things to me. She's kind of new agey so we talk about mindfulness a lot. As for accepting the fact I have bipolar, I thought I had. But it was false. I spent 8 years stabilized with only anxiety breakouts. I had a use-as-needed anxiety medicine so I never went through anything bad. Then some time ago, I don't remember but I'm sure I posted about it here, I had a bad bipolar episode. The doc upped my meds and I thought everything was going to be okay again. Now in the past two weeks I've had two episodes. The only positive thing I can say about them is that I cycle fast. I don't spend days in a hypomanic state. It's less than a day and the next day I'm just tired. So I went back to my therapist that I haven't seen since late last year and told her to please help me learn to accept this condition under real thoughts and not false ones. She was just saying that since I have bipolar, I am likely to have another attack whether it's soon or months/years from now. I need to learn to be happy and not be stressed just waiting for an episode. That's what I want for myself. I have so many good things going for me. I should be in a very happy state right now but instead I'm frustrated and angry. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Joyofsixreboot Posted February 13, 2018 Share Posted February 13, 2018 (((Hugs))) Sent from my SM-G950U using Tapatalk Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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