Night Elf Posted January 31, 2018 Share Posted January 31, 2018 I've been acting strange and having physical signs of anxiety so I finally emailed my doctor last night. Today while I was working at the thrift store, a nurse called my landline, cell phone and sent me an email telling me if the symptoms persist or worsen to call an advice or go to the Kaiser Advance Care Center or an ER. I know I've not been feeling well, but good grief, I thought 3 messages were overkill. Then I get an email from my actual doctor who told me I was in a hypomanic episode. Really? Why do I not SEE these things? I was very logical about the weird symptoms I was having but I just thought it was anxiety as I've been worried about my ds lately. Now that she's pointed it out to me, I can look back over the last few days and know exactly what I've done that points to hypomania and it makes total sense. But when I'm immersed in it, it's difficult to recognize. I wasn't even going to email her last night but my DH insisted. So I'm happy he watches out for me. So this means yet another medication increase. At least with these slow increases, I haven't been feeling any side effects. I'm scared to death she's going to change my med cocktail completely though. I do NOT want to go through transitions of new meds. So now I know why I've been sensitive these past few days. I started a couple of threads and had to back out of reading them because they were causing my anxiety to shoot through the roof. So if you directed a question to me and I didn't answer, that is why. I'm sorry. 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TechWife Posted January 31, 2018 Share Posted January 31, 2018 :grouphug: 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maize Posted January 31, 2018 Share Posted January 31, 2018 :grouphug: Glad you've got folks looking out for you. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Selkie Posted January 31, 2018 Share Posted January 31, 2018 :grouphug: I'm glad you're getting help and hope you're feeling better soon. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ottakee Posted January 31, 2018 Share Posted January 31, 2018 So glad you can take care of yourself before things get worse. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SparklyUnicorn Posted January 31, 2018 Share Posted January 31, 2018 Feel better. Sounds like you have really good care. I think this can be a tough time of year. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Chris in VA Posted January 31, 2018 Share Posted January 31, 2018 Hugs to you. It is hard to be in the middle of things and see clearly--btdt, still doing it. <3 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freesia Posted January 31, 2018 Share Posted January 31, 2018 Great job taking care of yourself! Your dh sounds great, too. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Twigs Posted January 31, 2018 Share Posted January 31, 2018 :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
stephanier.1765 Posted January 31, 2018 Share Posted January 31, 2018 Great job taking care of yourself! Your dh sounds great, too. Perfectly said! This is a good example of how much teamwork and love (both self and spousal) it takes to care for ourselves. Well done both of you! 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Catwoman Posted January 31, 2018 Share Posted January 31, 2018 Please don’t apologize for anything, Beth! You are always so kind and sweet to everyone! I hope the increase in medications works for you. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Scarlett Posted January 31, 2018 Share Posted January 31, 2018 Hope your meds adjustment will be relatively smooth. Take care of yourself. I think you are being pretty brave about life right now, judging from your posts - it's not easy to get out of your comfort zone anyway, throw in an illness and it's even harder. Plenty of hugs. :iagree: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Night Elf Posted January 31, 2018 Author Share Posted January 31, 2018 Y'all are kind. I wish I felt brave. Instead I just feel stupid. DH says I shouldn't feel that way but I can't help it. I don't like when other people can tell me how I'm behaving and I can't see it for myself. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Catwoman Posted January 31, 2018 Share Posted January 31, 2018 Y'all are kind. I wish I felt brave. Instead I just feel stupid. DH says I shouldn't feel that way but I can't help it. I don't like when other people can tell me how I'm behaving and I can't see it for myself. It’s not just you, Beth — it happens to all of us! :grouphug: 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
catz Posted January 31, 2018 Share Posted January 31, 2018 Hope it helps quickly! It's great you have a team on top of this for you. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JudoMom Posted January 31, 2018 Share Posted January 31, 2018 Y'all are kind. I wish I felt brave. Instead I just feel stupid. DH says I shouldn't feel that way but I can't help it. I don't like when other people can tell me how I'm behaving and I can't see it for myself. The brave part is doing the hard things even when you feel scared or stupid or anxious. 5 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ottakee Posted February 1, 2018 Share Posted February 1, 2018 The brave part is doing the hard things even when you feel scared or stupid or anxious. I agree. It is also brave that you are taking care of yourself and keeping a good support system to help you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Harriet Vane Posted February 1, 2018 Share Posted February 1, 2018 (edited) Beth, I have to say how much I admire you. You've always been someone I enjoy chatting with here. I am so impressed that you trust the people who love you and that you reach out for help when things don't feel quite right. And I am delighted and impressed with the way you have been expanding your horizons lately with your volunteer work. As you are struggling right now, be kind to yourself. I hope the meds adjustment goes smoothly. :grouphug: Edited February 1, 2018 by Harriet Vane 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LarlaB Posted February 1, 2018 Share Posted February 1, 2018 I wish I felt brave too. I just thought this morning that "I don't have to feel brave to be brave..... bravery and courage is something I do, not something I feel"It's hard to feel blindsided repeatedly by not 'seeing' or 'knowing' something you feel you should somehow have seen or anticipated. I'm so thankful you have a DH & tuned in medical care walking along side of you. Most of the time we don't see what something is until AFTER something has passed and we can examine and reflect. Hugs & High Fives Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Garga Posted February 1, 2018 Share Posted February 1, 2018 I’m so glad to hear your dh is taking care of you and I’’m doubly glad to hear that you listening to him and called your doctor. I hope you don’t have to change your meds, either. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lizzie in Ma Posted February 1, 2018 Share Posted February 1, 2018 :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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