Miss Peregrine Posted August 29, 2016 Share Posted August 29, 2016 The past 2 days I have been feeling really down, and anxiety has been high. Can't sleep at night, just absolutely blah. I thought it was just the stress of dealing with an unethical contractor who damaged our car but then I remembered that today is my dad's birthday. He died 11 years ago. Our relationship was painful. Still is. Then I remembered that this happens every year around and including his birthday. Until I remember what day it is. So strange that my body knows, even when I seemingly have no clue. No wonder I thought of a particularly hurtful event the other day. Anyway. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Anne Posted August 29, 2016 Share Posted August 29, 2016 I'm so sorry. (((Hugs))) Anne 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Amira Posted August 29, 2016 Share Posted August 29, 2016 :grouphug: 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DawnM Posted August 29, 2016 Share Posted August 29, 2016 I am so sorry. It is just bizarre how somehow in the recesses of our brain, we know, and it triggers things we don't always realize. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CanadianAlison+3boys Posted August 29, 2016 Share Posted August 29, 2016 Gentle *hugs* 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Pawz4me Posted August 29, 2016 Share Posted August 29, 2016 :grouphug: :grouphug: 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
madteaparty Posted August 29, 2016 Share Posted August 29, 2016 So sorry. :( 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
creekland Posted August 29, 2016 Share Posted August 29, 2016 :grouphug: I'm sorry. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AnnE-girl Posted August 29, 2016 Share Posted August 29, 2016 I'm so sorry. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jjeepa Posted August 29, 2016 Share Posted August 29, 2016 :grouphug: So sorry! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Scarlett Posted August 29, 2016 Share Posted August 29, 2016 (((Hugs))))). It is amazing how our bodies do know when milestone anniversaries come around. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Angie in VA Posted August 29, 2016 Share Posted August 29, 2016 :grouphug: I'm so sorry. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MercyA Posted August 29, 2016 Share Posted August 29, 2016 :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kassia Posted August 29, 2016 Share Posted August 29, 2016 I'm sorry. Thinking of you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Junie Posted August 29, 2016 Share Posted August 29, 2016 :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: My father died close to the time that yours did. We did not have a good relationship. I had to work through the memories to remove the pain. Now there is mostly just sadness for the fact that the relationship was not what it should have been. I think of him especially on his birthday and on the anniversary of his death. He was in the Army. I realized that I could be proud of him as a soldier, even if I couldn't be proud of him as a father. OP, I hope that you can work through your memories to come to a place of peace. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Soror Posted August 29, 2016 Share Posted August 29, 2016 :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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speedmom4 Posted August 29, 2016 Share Posted August 29, 2016 (((Hugs))) My father is still living and we don't have a good relationship. I already mourn what could have been and I image that it will be difficult even when he is gone. Hope tomorrow is a better day. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
happi duck Posted August 29, 2016 Share Posted August 29, 2016 (hugs) That exact thing happens to me...my body "remembers". With certain dates I have made a point to get them on the calendar and mark the day with something specific. It seems if I am consciously remembering then my physical reaction is less severe. (hugs) 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Miss Peregrine Posted August 29, 2016 Author Share Posted August 29, 2016 (hugs) That exact thing happens to me...my body "remembers". With certain dates I have made a point to get them on the calendar and mark the day with something specific. It seems if I am consciously remembering then my physical reaction is less severe. (hugs) That is a good idea. Thanks. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Miss Peregrine Posted August 29, 2016 Author Share Posted August 29, 2016 (((Hugs))) My father is still living and we don't have a good relationship. I already mourn what could have been and I image that it will be difficult even when he is gone. Hope tomorrow is a better day. Thanks, and :grouphug: to you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Miss Peregrine Posted August 29, 2016 Author Share Posted August 29, 2016 :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: My father died close to the time that yours did. We did not have a good relationship. I had to work through the memories to remove the pain. Now there is mostly just sadness for the fact that the relationship was not what it should have been. I think of him especially on his birthday and on the anniversary of his death. He was in the Army. I realized that I could be proud of him as a soldier, even if I couldn't be proud of him as a father. OP, I hope that you can work through your memories to come to a place of peace. Mine was in the Marines and fought in Vietnam :) Very strange but I am reminded of him all the time. My 18yo ds pronounces some words just like him, has this way of laughing, with facial expression that is exactly like my dad and is a copy of his mechanical/inventive personality. Genetics are a strange thing as my son was only around him a handful of times as a baby. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Junie Posted August 29, 2016 Share Posted August 29, 2016 My father was also in Vietnam and had undiagnosed PTSD. Realizing this fact was crucial to me finding the silver lining in that relationship. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Miss Peregrine Posted August 29, 2016 Author Share Posted August 29, 2016 My father was also in Vietnam and had undiagnosed PTSD. Realizing this fact was crucial to me finding the silver lining in that relationship.Yes! I totally believe this. I say he died in Vietnam but didn't actually pass away until many years later. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
school17777 Posted August 29, 2016 Share Posted August 29, 2016 (((Hugs))) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
elegantlion Posted August 29, 2016 Share Posted August 29, 2016 :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Seasider Posted August 29, 2016 Share Posted August 29, 2016 Hugs to you. I agree that subconsciously we remember, even when it takes a while to identify the source. You are in good company today. It is the 11th anniversary of Katrina. Lots of thoughts of loss going around. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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