Impish Posted June 7, 2010 Share Posted June 7, 2010 I have a 2 hr assessment on Thursday for the CRPS program. I dread it. First, the sinking feeling that there' going to be nothing that they can do for me that hasn't already been done in the other programs I've completed, and being 2 yrs into CRPS. Second, its a 2 hr appt, 1 hr with PT, 1 hr with OT. I'm going to be in severe pain, no way around it. Just thinking about it has me on the edge of tears. I hate knowing that I'm going to be in such pain, and having no choice in it, I *have* to go, cooperate, let them hurt me. I'm so tired of this stuff, letting ppl torque my arm around, hmming and hawing, making decisions that again, I have no say in. If there was *any* hope, that would be one thing. Knowing in advance, even by admission of the booking clerk that there's little chance they can offer me anything I haven't done...its pain without reason. If you wouldn't mind praying that I get through this without completely breaking down, I'd appreciate it. Last time I went for testing, I ended up passed out in my upstairs hall, discovered by Diva, who though I was dead. I'm so scared of something like that happening again. :crying: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gaillardia Posted June 7, 2010 Share Posted June 7, 2010 :crying: That makes me sad, that sounds horrible. I have prayed for you. I'm sorry you have to go through so much physical pain. You are not alone.:grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jean in Newcastle Posted June 7, 2010 Share Posted June 7, 2010 :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jennifer in MI Posted June 7, 2010 Share Posted June 7, 2010 :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: I'll definitely pray. Your poor dd. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
3lilreds in NC Posted June 7, 2010 Share Posted June 7, 2010 :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Let me ask you this: if there is nothing they can offer you, do you have to do the evaluation? I'm guessing that you do or you wouldn't be doing it. Is this something that is required so that they will continue to let you have the medication you need? Or is this a new program that you want to try because they might be able to do something? I'm so sorry, Sweetie. I hate that you have to go through this. Is there anyone who can come over and be with you when you get home, in case you are incapacitated? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
melmichigan Posted June 7, 2010 Share Posted June 7, 2010 :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Starr Posted June 7, 2010 Share Posted June 7, 2010 I'll be praying for you as well. Maybe you should just walk in screaming. :) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FaithManor Posted June 7, 2010 Share Posted June 7, 2010 Oh Imp, I am so sorry you have to go through this. I just said a prayer and I will keep remembering you. Can you take any kind of pain med before going that will help take the edge off? I prayed for Diva too. That's so scary. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Faith Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lllll Posted June 7, 2010 Share Posted June 7, 2010 We'll be praying for you, and your family, and your doctors, etc. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Chris in VA Posted June 7, 2010 Share Posted June 7, 2010 I'm sorry:grouphug: I'll have everyone I know pray for your pain to be bearable, Dear. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Impish Posted June 7, 2010 Author Share Posted June 7, 2010 I *have* to go, or my case manager says I'm 'non-compliant', and cuts off all funding. I have no options. Thank you all so much. I feel like I'm crumbling, about to break apart under all this. Just when I think there's an end in sight, something more comes up, another hoop. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Impish Posted June 7, 2010 Author Share Posted June 7, 2010 :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Let me ask you this: if there is nothing they can offer you, do you have to do the evaluation? I'm guessing that you do or you wouldn't be doing it. Is this something that is required so that they will continue to let you have the medication you need? Or is this a new program that you want to try because they might be able to do something? I'm so sorry, Sweetie. I hate that you have to go through this. Is there anyone who can come over and be with you when you get home, in case you are incapacitated? My husband is coming home to be with the children while I'm at the appt, and I have a trusted cab driver taking me to and from the appt. He's seen me after assessments, and is very careful with me, even calling Wolf on his cell to get him to meet us as we pull in, to help me into the house. This is a new program they want me assessed for, so they can then go over everything and decide if its any use or not. I'll be praying for you as well. Maybe you should just walk in screaming. :) I do that, and they say I'm faking everything. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
3lilreds in NC Posted June 7, 2010 Share Posted June 7, 2010 That really, really stinks. I'm so sorry. I hope that it's not as bad as you think it will be, and I am and will continue praying for you. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Teachin'Mine Posted June 7, 2010 Share Posted June 7, 2010 I am praying for you! I'm so sorry you have to go through this. You would think that with all of medicine's sophistication that they'd be able to assess your pain level through simple monitors of heart rate and all, so they can be assured that you're not "faking it". It's bad enough that you have the constant pain, but even worse when someone is trying to prove that you aren't in pain. Praying that they can streamline their evaluation process for you and not put you through such agony, or that some good can come from it all. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
unsinkable Posted June 7, 2010 Share Posted June 7, 2010 you have my prayers! All my WTM friends are frequent fliers on my prayer list! :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
HerdingCats Posted June 7, 2010 Share Posted June 7, 2010 :grouphug: It must be dreadful to deal with this. I pray for answers and options and a bearable exam. I pray for gentleness and wisdom from caring professionals, and of course that you would recieve a complete and miraculous healing somehow. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Impish Posted June 7, 2010 Author Share Posted June 7, 2010 I am praying for you! I'm so sorry you have to go through this. You would think that with all of medicine's sophistication that they'd be able to assess your pain level through simple monitors of heart rate and all' date=' so they can be assured that you're not "faking it". It's bad enough that you have the constant pain, but even worse when someone is trying to prove that you aren't in pain. Praying that they can streamline their evaluation process for you and not put you through such agony, or that some good can come from it all. :grouphug:[/quote'] I've been on the heart rate monitors. All my exams have come back unfit for any level of work...but she keeps trying. None of my Drs support the 7 wk pain clinic, yet she keeps threatening me with it. My pain specialist is the best in the province, but she doesn't like the meds I'm on...and she's not a medical professional. How she gets to make these decisions is beyond me. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rookie Posted June 7, 2010 Share Posted June 7, 2010 :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dirty ethel rackham Posted June 7, 2010 Share Posted June 7, 2010 Praying for you, Imp. I pray that you get through this assessment. I continue to pray for a miracle healing for you as well. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Impish Posted June 7, 2010 Author Share Posted June 7, 2010 Thank you :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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