I hear you loud and clear. Four years ago we moved to a town of 3,500 people. I thought, given the fact that the town's largest employer often recruits outsiders, we would be welcomed here. I thought two college-educated veterans would be welcomed. I thought our regular attendance and volunteering at church would be looked upon with favor. I thought my ability to speak to the lowest of the low and highest of the high (socially) would be a benefit. I thought my well-behaved (ish) kids would be an asset. I thought I was moving to Mayberry.
I now realize I moved into the Twilight Zone. The natives are hostile. No amount of smiling and kindness on my part will remove the stain of "outsider". I never thought by removing my kids from the craptastic public school I was effectively d@mning us to the eternal blacklist. I thought, by force of personality, I could overcome the fact that we were born elsewhere. I thought if I was just nicer, kinder, thinner I would win people over. It will never happen.
Thank God we have a large amount of outsiders here. I have been able to form a few friendships with other outsiders. They know how the shunning machine works. They appreciate me for who I am, not the place of my birth. And blessing of all blessings, I have finally found an incredible group of wacky ladies online who make me feel at home.
I feel bad for my kids. They will never be accepted here because their parents weren't born here. They are incredibly flexible. As long as we don't involve ourselves in too many town activities, they really don't notice our blacklist status. I do have to tell them to keep our political views to themselves or else they will suffer, but they are pretty oblivious.
Emeraldjoy, just find your niche. That may in fact be online. You are not alone in this type of situation. The only thing that keeps me going is knowing that I am being the bigger person. I will continue to be nice to the snobs. They will not run me out of this town. Eventually I may even grow on them. Hopefully your kids will not have to suffer like mine have. Sometimes just attending the local school, craptastic though it may be, gives you an "in" with small town society.
I will remember your and your family in my thoughts and prayers.