She was here a few days ago. Perhaps she'll notice this thread was resurrected and reply.
to the original question. I'm also in the same boat as others. I'm not totally over being done. It's been 11yrs since I had my last and I was pretty sure he would be my last. There was a lot of those bittersweet moments (last nursling, last crawling baby, last first steps, etc. etc.). At 48 I know in my head that having another baby would be VERY hard (I get very ill during pregnancies) but that doesn't mean I don't wish I could.
Now that my oldest is pregnant I have to admit that I have conflicting emotions. I'm very excited for HER but sometimes I wish it were me. Does that make me an awful grandma to be???