:grouphug: I'm so thankful for my children. I had a pretty rough upbringing and never thought I would be able to have children because I was so convinced that I would be a horrible mom if I did. I never wanted them because I was so afraid of this and my psychologist at the time basically fed those beliefs by saying that unless I "worked on myself" I would be a bad mother. (I think he had a steady paycheck in mind). Well, God is good and He is more powerful than circumstances and He apparently has A LOT of faith in me (or a really good sense of humor) because I have two special needs kids that I love and adore. My son totally melts my heart, because he cannot speak (Autism), but when I look at his face I can see his love for me shining in his eyes. He loves to have cuddles and always wants me to look into his face. If I look away at something, he will pull my face back to look at him. Ay, he's so sweet! :)