With all due respect, you have no idea what you are talking about and need to just stop. This stuff is triggering enough without having to read through this kind of drivel on a homeschooling board.
I didn't choose to leave a successful career as a litigator, friends, family, and two children who love me, $1.3 million in condos and a Porsche because attempting suicide sounded like a better option. I tried to kill myself because my mind was a raging inferno of hopelessness and despair -- because the tornado swirling inside my head could not comprehend that there were sunny days just around the corner. I felt that, despite all evidence to the contrary, the world would be a better place without me in it. I pray that you never know that kind of agony.
The worst part is, I know that I will feel this way again, likely many more times in my life. Because I have a chronic illness that will never go away. It can only be managed, and sometimes not very well. Statistically, I have somewhere between a 25-50% chance of killing myself -- likely on the higher end since I have already tried before. Those are not comforting odds, and they are certainly not something anyone would choose to face.