So so sorry Sadie! I was going to ask the same as previous poster - can you get a 2nd opinion?

Only hubby is on the mortgage. Both names are on the deed.

He's still sick and now both hubby and I have fallen.

Yes, most days. Eggs, whole wheat toast and fruit 3 days a week, muffins, sausage, pancakes, French toast etc get thrown into the rotation. I usually plan to do cereal and fruit once a week but the kids almost always wants eggs to go with it (or complain they are hungry 30 min after)

Really excellent points maize!

I'm so sorry Sadie! With my anxiety and depression I worry so much about my kids ending up with the same issues. I worry about passing it genetically or through nurture and feel paralyzed sometimes. But all you can do is the best you can do - which you have done and are doing! Pray that you will find peace in the midst of these hard circumstances.

He's still feeling quite miserable. Everyone said "once they give him fluids he will perk right up" - not the case at all. They did let him come home but we have a follow up today and idk what they will say. It appears it's just a stomach bug bug this makes day 4 and he's so weak, in pain, won't eat etc :( I slept better last night (thanks meds!) bit woke to panic attacks this morning...

I'm swinging from panic attacks to sobbing to feeling numb :(. Everything just feels SO hard!

If it's not one thing, it everything In addition to struggling severely with anxiety and depression symptoms, and being put on more meds (which makes me worry about baby) and being 30 weeks pregnant my 5yo son is sick. REALLY sick. He threw up several times Friday night and had diarrhea yesterday. He's been so lethargic (my hubby has been changing his clothes and carrying him from room to room). He has no appetite and lots of pain. My hubby took him to urgent care and they sent him to the ER. Im at home, under my weighted blanket, trying to stop panicking :( We could really use prayers for me, my son and that no one else gets whatever he has. This 30 weeks hormonal, anxious, depressed mama can't take much more!

Just thinking of your daughter in the hospital and wondering how she is doing!

I just feel like this could be a never ending cycle - I was just experiencing anxiety for a while at first. Is the depression something caused by hormones or an anxiety med? And if in fact it was a med then which one? It feels like an impossible puzzle! if its hormones or whatever than trial and error meds will hopefully help. If it's a med making me worse but 3 different meds are being played with how do I know which one is doing what? And I get that it's hard to sort out but not sorting it out seems like I could go on and on and never get better. And as it is my hubby is basically having to care for me around the clock and that's meaning losing time. And I'm not well enough to care for our kids. It's a MESS! Plus if we don't get this sorted out before my baby is born im at risk for ever more issues (which I can't imagine how I could handle that!!)

Ladies, I'm sooooo discouraged! I'm taking Remeron, now coming off seroquel and taking Ativan. I've been feeling ZERO joy in anything, lack of interest9 in EVERYTHING my family and kids (which is sooooooo not like me!). Friends are reaching out and I have no interest in any of them (so not like me). How do I sort out what is hormones, what is anxiety or depression, what is a med side effect or an affect of Coming off a med. I feel soooooo terribly overwhelmed!

Plum paper is offering a 25% discount for planner orders places by tomorrow! Mine is ordered. Hoping I get better and it can be filled with things more exciting than counseling apts and psych visits :( Sorry for the doom and gloom. I DID enjoy ordering my planner :)

That is so encouraging to hear!

Not much better. I did see a reproductive psych yesterday and she was very hopeful about being able to help me - but I'm not as hopeful! She thinks my depression symptoms (hopelessness, suicidality, despite, lack in interest and enjoyment) is all stemming from my anxiety (general anxiety, panic and OCD). She wants to get that under control and then see what to add. She's upping my Ativan (I thought you couldn't take it in pregnancy but she said that there's only an itty bitty increased risk of taken in the first trimester, nothing to worry about at 28 wks. She said she's prescribed it many times with no issues). She's talking me off the low dose seroquel bc we were seeing no benefit from that. In a month she will add something else. It just seems so long and drawn out! I thought for sure she would send me to a psych ward, but she thought we could handle this outpatient. I sure hope she's right!! I AM still on the waiting list for UNC Perinatal hospital again if needed. I had a very positive experience there and wouldn't mind returning if needed.

Great news

Yes, my name is Mary. It seems this is a hormonal thing for me. It is very very severe though.

I'm on the way to see a reproductive psych over the state line bc no one in my area specializes and I'm struggling so severely! I've been incredibly suicidal all week bc of the unrelenting depression and anxiety symptoms. Every single day I feel a bit worse and worse. It's so bad. Please pray for my safety. I am scared that in a moment of weakness I'll end up taking my life. That threat seems VERY real.

That's so great that you saw something as fun and an adventure!! And then your mom could care for you! My kids are 5 and 3 and we've been telling them "mommy is sick" explaining that sometimes when babies are in a mommys belly or when they come out it can make mommies a little extra sick". When I was hospitalized at UNC in their perinatal unit the kids came to visit several days and we had movie night with them, nurses spoiled them etc. So I don't think they are scarred.' They're staying with family over night and with friends or family during the day. And we are seeing them every other day or so for a couple hours. It's just all SO hard :( A little over a month ago I was well and caring for them all day every day, doing school with my son. Then on a Tuesday afternoon I woke with panic attacks and things have spiraled quickly since :(

Oh I'm definitely taking meds!!! And we likely have no choice but to change and add some. It's far to severe to just tough it out. It seems like a hormonal thing to all the doctors - so hard and frustrating!

Yes!!! Time is passing so incredibly slow! It's really really awful!! I've got coloring books, and music, and counseling - buts it's still just so very hard!

Thank you ladies! I've shared openly with friends here. And I have a loving supportive husband and family. It's definitely not situational as my situation is just fine! But it's so bad I can't care for my kids - they are with their grandparents. I've been suicidal so my husband is having to work from home to help care for me. I can't eat or sleep. It's terrible and 12 more weeks of pregnancy feels like an eternity (and then who knows how things will go after he's born - I had horrific postpartum after my 2nd) I'm waiting to go back to the hospital but just struggling in the meantime!

I'm already taking meds but may need more... Just feeling so incredibly hopeless!

I could really use stories of hope and encouragement. Has anyone been hospitalized for severe anxiety or depression and gone on to feel better? Has anyone taken meds during pregnancy for these issues (if so, what did you take and was everything ok?). I'm struggling severely and have already been hospitalized once this pregnancy. I need stories of hope and encouragement and anything practical you have to throw my way! (I'm in close contact with my counselor and Doctor, just looking for anything else that might provide some hope!)

I'm right there with you!! I'm struggling with terrible prenatal anxiety and depression. And I've been there before too. It's terrible. Praying for us all!