So I am sitting here tonight thinking of the year ahead. My husband is away doing night training in preparation for his next tour overseas. I have weathered deployments before with small children, one we were stationed overseas ourselves. Last tour I had our fifth baby and she ended up having surgery for pyloric stenosis. I can handle crisis when he is away. I have been an army wife for awhile now.;) However, this tour frightens me in a way I can't even put into words. It simply sucks the breath from my chest. I have six little people who depend on me and need me to be strong. My oldest is turning 10 the same week he is due to leave. He is such a stong little man but my heart breaks for him. Please don't misread my post. My husband and I have a very stong relationship and he is a wonderful father. He has a stong sense of duty to his country and he loves what he does. I fully support him and would never want to take that from him.
Honestly, I need him to come home. I need to know he will come home. That is all.