I’m so sleepy but maybe I can try the water dept tomorrow if I go really early. Did a test using the parking info and it won’t cost an arm & a leg.

They even give the teens temp bus passes in the maker space so they can travel to the branches easier. They have to go through certain courses on the computers here to get access to other certain things (like time inside the recording studio).

I got to practice some stuff today and activated my library card. It comes with perks!! I can get me and others (number varies by facility) into local places like museums & the zoo. So basically I can take the kids for free. It’s good once every 30 days. Toured the grant funded maker space. They have so much there (button making, T-shirts, music recording, sewing etc). Some is off limits even to us but we were allowed to play with certain things. I played the drums 😆

I don’t feel adequate at all in my language knowledge

I think I’m too overwhelmed to pursue all this now. It’s sounding like more and more work.

I’ll try to find out from someone else what the test entails to know how in depth it is. I do still own Spanish books (Getting Started with Spanish). But I went through like 22 levels of Duolingo and never felt like I could speak it

I don’t know what languages they accept but I know way more about Spanish than ASL. The test is over the phone so I doubt there’s an ASL test.

Drove to the gym to test location. Not worth it. Crazy traffic and took over 20 min. Online estimate was faster. When I can I’ll get back to using my exercise bike & at-home strength training equipment. It sucks because I like the “get out of the house” option the gym grants me. Oh well. I checked on kitty and the house was freezing. Don’t ask me why landlord left it on 55 a/c. He was in there last because he was finishing something as I left the other day. I moved it to heat. Poor kitty. I like the staff but I won’t actually work with most of the people I’ve met… different branches. My unemployment money is processing. My food stamps will automatically end in Dec so I won’t do anything. You can get a raise if you’re bilingual and pass a test but I’ve failed every attempt to learn Spanish so not sure how much I’d have to do to meet the requirements. They do have Mango (never tried. I’ve tried just about every other popular language program plus 4 college Spanish classes).

I don’t want to jump into school now but there is some tuition assistance for an MLS/MLIS. No idea pay grade. I got a tour of most of this branch. The teen zone is amazing. I’ll have to take ds… though it may or may not appeal to him. There is a music recording area and other cool things. Apparently Best Buy sponsors these teen zones for several places, constantly upgrading the computers in the teen zone. They have a large population of illiterate people (40%) and a lot of people that still check out CDs and DVDs. 600 DVDs in that branch and typically 300 checked out at a time. You can take home 30 at once! Hearing this made me feel like “ohhh this is a population I can connect with” given my experience with a very poor area (and my own financial obstacles lol I get not always wanting to pay for streaming!). I asked if I could wear my combat boots lol they said yes. Screw these heels 🤣 I figured yes when I saw an employee wearing red ones getting into a library van.

My dental & vision is included. The other info is like if you want to pay for additional insurance (like orthodontic care). I ask questions lol I asked for clarification on a couple things. I think I’m older than the ones training too ha

I had trouble finding the water dept. Half the street was blocked off and I don’t understand the parking at all yet. What do I owe if I pay using the app? There are no rates marked, no actual meters for quarters. There was a parking lot that charged $9. I parked illegally for less than 5 min to run inside and see what the wait time was. They said a little under an hour probably. I knew I had no time. Plus traffic was so bad you have to add onto the GPS estimate I got last night. Traffic was a nightmare really… all these one way streets, forks you don’t expect (gps suddenly saying “stay left of the fork”), streets without visible street name signs. My gps says turn on ____ street. Ok is that here?? I see no label. I normally avoid pastries these days but they had complimentary food at our morning presentation/training. I was the only new employee that took one lol I don’t care, I’m not embarrassed. I believe am older than the other new hires. And none of us will work in the same branch after training. We were sent to a room to do paperwork. We won’t meet back up til 1 which means I have enough time to go get lunch. I might go to a nearby hospital cafeteria so I don’t have ti drive. The staff agreed that the water dept is a nightmare and takes forever so I’m not sure when I’ll go back. At this rate I might have to go there on Friday (my day off) as I’m scheduled to work at 9 the other days and the water dept opens at 8.

I told my friend that my cat was like I didn't sign up for a roller coaster today!

I talked to my neighbor that works at the gym I want to join to ask if she knew of any upcoming deals where maybe they waive the start up fee or annual fee. She said they aren't given deal info in advance but she gets a friends & family discount so if I come in when she's working she can sign me up that way and I'll get some sort of discount on the membership. I'll try to do that on Friday. We exchanged cell phone numbers and showed each other our apartments/met each other's pets. They are not identical. I decided it was better to just bring the cat so that I'm not far from her and she's not stuck in a room with no window (don't ask me why but there was no window in the last room I stayed in. It didn't appear to be an add-on, either. So strange!). I'm sure she's a bit lonely tonight but she has full reign of the house!! I'll do my best to get to the water dept in time to set up water tomorrow. My friend that I'm staying with tonight said that groceries were significantly more money in LA than MS when she moved here so depending on where I drive I might want to stock up on groceries outside of the area. I don't know if I'll get unemployment for this past week but I filed just in case. I forgot to pack a lunch and it's a nightmare getting in/out of the branch I'm working at tomorrow. I don't know if I can buy something and toss in a work fridge last minute or find someone to carpool with at lunch maybe? Or maybe there's somewhere to eat in walking distance!

You speak to me as if I’ve never been single. And ok with it. But ok. Thanks for your input.

I know initially my fear was “losing” this person. Oh they will move on and meet someone else soon and that’s that. I’m too demanding so they could meet some chick that doesn’t mind their crazy schedule. I don’t know. I think too much.

That’s a fair question! And I’m probably not qualified to answer 😆

Yeah we discussed the bad timing. I’d like to think “right guy, wrong time” but it might just be wrong guy. Heck if I know. We had a spark 20 years ago, then recently. I’d like to think if we’re meant to be it could be there once things settle down for both of us. One thing I really like about him is he doesn’t live beyond his means. No debt. He doesn’t even have a cc.

So I listen to this guy Matthew Hussey. And a woman Margarita Nazarenko. They very much imply a guy will move mountains for the right woman. So by chase I mean put forth consistent effort not like just the first week or 2. I notice a lot of guys just drop off. Everyone is on their best behavior at first, too!

He did pursue me. But lots of tentative plans, broken plans, then the breakup so I shouldn’t have been surprised the dynamic changed. The second time we hung out my landlords were out of town. We talked from like 10 pm (after his kids were in bed) til breakfast! I’m gonna work on myself and try to stop scaring guys away 🤦🏻‍♀️

We spoke on the phone a couple days ago. I’m not actively reaching out to him. He ended the call with talk to you soon. I probably pushed him away with my anxiety and insecurities. I was just sad he didn’t make it happen to see me before I left town. My brain flopped between you’re not entitled to his time, he’s busy, back off” and “if he wanted to, he would.” When we broke up I was flexible about going cold turkey but he insisted he still wanted to spend time together before I moved. And those plans typically weren’t in stone/got canceled.

Kitty was secured very well.

The cat is at the new house. I’m at the laundromat. Had a very scary incident today. Hydroplaned off the interstate on the way to LA. Car swung in a circle. I almost got stuck in the mud. My brain thought great, you’re gonna miss your first day of work, total your car and end up in a hospital ($$$). Like I was more worried about the money than my life. That’s how depressed I’ve been.

That would bother me, too lol I would sorta take the nailing biting habit as unnecessary to point out but I’d also think I was probably overreacting. I’ve never had my nails done professionally. The thought of them shoving my cuticles back sorta deters me

I’m a way nothing in this thread makes me feel better 🤣 You ask if we’re ok and they might lie you notice a pattern change and address it. Now you feel Iike you’ve made a mountain out of a molehill but… maybe you were right. Even if they dismiss it. I had a guy ghost once and stop reading the Facebook messenger messages. I mentioned this via cell phone number and he said it was nothing, we had just swapped platforms. That was BS lol. He either stopped clicking on the Facebook messages (you can sorta read them as pop ups if you have notifications on) or read them and marked them unread. Within about 48 hrs I never heard from him again. He was just warming up to ghosting. I have trust issues partly because people are friggin liars. Now some may tell the truth but I think it’s often a half truth. Other times it may be full truth. I repeatedly hear that a man will chase if he wants you. When I start seeing a decline in communication I think oh he’s done… doesn’t want to court me or doesn’t want to put real effort into it. That could be wrong! It’s just feel I feel.

“Otherins” was what was printed but I think it referred to the default plan which was employees pay nothing and get the state employee ins through BCBS. It showed a couple dollars taken out. Anytime I went to the dr outside of a wellness visit, I had to pay full price. So it really didn’t do much. On Reddit I saw people saying 40%+ was taken out of their checks. So it might not be all that uncommon.