I totally understand where you are now, at least I think. With the first DS going into senior year, I have to deal with all these paper works which can be overwhelming. On top of that, he is thinking about this college about 13 hours drive from home. Being an obedient child, if I insist he stays close home, he would, I know. But should I, especially when I know how much he likes that college, for the sake of keeping family close? Or is it my selfish desire?
He attended this conference couple weeks ago. All expense paid, travel arranged because he was the scholarship finalist. Of course I was proud of him and happy for him. After I dropped him off at the airport, I could not stop feeling so small and insignificant about myself while thinking about what to do when I get home. Fixing breakfast for the rest of family, laundry, and doing same school that I've been doing last 10 years, while DS is having a time of his life. Isn't it all twisted? I don't think it was a jealousy, but still I cannot put my finger on it..
All I am saying is, I hear you, girl and you are not the only one!