I think I'm sad!

[goldberry]

I was a reluctant homeschooler who only did it because it was best for DD.  We homeschooled from grades 5-11. Also, the last four years she has been part of an amazing homeschool competitive science team that required a great deal of time investment and parental involvement. 

 

She is doing senior year dual enrollment though an early college program, so.... we're done with that part. Now, at a time I would normally be getting curriculum and schedules finalized, and getting ready to start up a new science team season, she is getting ready instead for her early college.

 

Honestly, I found homeschooling to be a ton of work, and often emotionally draining as well.  Her science team was great, but my gosh, so much work - traveling, studying, coordinating (I helped with leadership), etc.  

 

I did not think I would feel this way.  I thought I would be glad to be done, and ready to move on.  Of course I'm working on helping her with college stuff, getting ready for applications, essays etc.  But it's not the same. 

 

I'm feeling totally lost.  I already miss the science team we invested so much in, the routine, the friends.  I miss thinking about how the pieces of the school year will fit together for her, which ones will bring her joy, how to get through the ones I know she'll grump about.  

 

I think I'm sad! :crying:  You just never know, do you?

 

Thanks for listening...

Edited July 27, 2016 by goldberry

[SparklyUnicorn]

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It's understandable.  it's been a focus for quite some time. 

[Guest]

Oh, I get it.  I do.

[Another Lynn]

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[Eagle]

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[Corraleno]

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[Bambam]

Yes, I understand. For me it was when we visited a large used bookstore, and I realized that I no longer had a want-to-buy-for-school booklist. What is my purpose if I'm not hunting a list of books? Can I just wander and find books that I would enjoy to read? Yes, of course, but I miss the feeling of usefulness I had!

[lllll]

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[MyLittleBears]

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[OneStepAtATime]

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Would it help to volunteer your time with the Science team just to help out upon occasion?  They might welcome the support.

[goldberry]

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Would it help to volunteer your time with the Science team just to help out upon occasion?  They might welcome the support.

 

DD is going to be mentoring/coaching the younger kids as soon as she sees how her college schedule works out.  That's how she is handling the transition, also, it will be good experience since she has decided she will be pursuing a secondary education degree in science.

 

I get the feeling she would prefer to do this without me hovering around much (which is how she would see it).  I'm sure I'll end up helping some.  

 

I'm sure it's going to be fine.  I have other things needing to be done to fill the time.  For some reason today, I just feel the loss of it all.

[momacacia]

I worked from home a few years ago on a large corporate building interior renovation. It was a really good balance to my home and homeschool life. I remember how when it was completed and I wasn't needed for that "important" of a project anymore it was a real emotional letdown.

 

This is a really big "project" you're coming to.the close of and moving on to another phase.

[Pam L in Mid Tenn]

I understand. I'm in the same place you are. It is hard to transition away from being a home school mom!

[Janeway]

(((Hugs)))

[Melissa in Australia]

Hugs

[Lizzie in Ma]

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[Anne in CA]

This is my fourth year of not home schooling and I finally don't feel that way. So, I get it. Change is hard even when it was anticipated.

[goldberry]

Thanks for understanding... I can always count on the hive!

[mommyoffive]

I am not there yet , but I can understand how you feel.  I am expecting to feel very sad.  Even if hs is hard, I know I will miss it.  And them.

 

I am trying to tell myself that will be the time to try all the stuff that I have wanted to do.

[TravelingChris]

It is my second year of not homeschooling and I still miss it  In a way, this year is harder than the last.  Last summer, I was busy helping dd get ready for college, going shopping with her and viewing things she bought when shopping on her own or with others.  This year, she is barely shopping (bought a few pens and notebooks when they were on sale at the grocery store when we were there).

 

You may find that with dual enrollment you are still helping her with her classes.  I know that my dd wanted me to help her with Spanish and would come to me when she was having problems with chemistry.