sunnylady303 Posted September 1, 2012 Share Posted September 1, 2012 We are a mess. We just are. There are reasons for it and many are not our fault and many of them are. My house is never clean. We're not talking hoarders messy, just cluttered and dusty. We never have enough money. Some of that is that DH just doesn't make enough and I can't work (due to DD's disability). Some of it is I don't manage the money well - I get overwhelmed and use money we don't have to buy yarn or books. We have been endlessly bailed out by friends and family. We are that family you know who just never has it together - we are good hearted people but we suck people in because we just always need more. I just feel like I never ever have it together and I don't know how to get it together. There have been a dozen times over the last years when something has brought me to a crisis point and I have resolved to change. The intentions are bone deep and completely sincere. But it doesn't last and somehow I slip back into mess-ness. I am at another crisis point. I want desperately to change. I realized last night that I am not sure I believe that change is possible for me. I am 35 - I should have it together by now. Is it possible? I just don't know. If anyone has BTDT, I would love to hear how you changed. Of course, I realize I might be the only grown up in the world who can't get it together. ETA: There are good things about me. :) My kids are amazing. I think I had a little bit to do with that. It's just I am not together at all. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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