KidsHappen Posted August 7, 2012 Share Posted August 7, 2012 and you are left standing in the middle of the battlefield to pick up the pieces and you just don't have the energy to do it because you used it all in the battle. That's where I am right now. Of course this is just a metaphor but my family has been throught two great tramaus in the last two months and I have been running my tail off (between here and GA) trying to hold it all together. Generally speaking I am one that does what has to be done and then has the break down latter. Mentally, physically and emotionally I am ready to cry it out and recooporate but I can't because my life is a mess (the house alone brought me to tears) that needs to be put back in order. I have no idea where I am going to get the strength and energy to whip it back in shape. I don't even know where to start. I need to handle the money and bills, school supplies (starts Friday), school clothes and shoes in order, and couple of back to school nights, much decluttering, and an unbelievable amount of cleaning. I also need to hire a yard man because I guess the kids and neighbors feel they have done enough and the yard is seriously over grown and I really don't think my hubby is ready to tackle it yet. I am actually praying for a manic spell in which I can cry my eyes out and clean my house top to bottom at the same time. Also, my last blood work came back and my heart inflamation was slightly elevated and my last blood pressure was 130/110 with a pulse of 120 which makes it really hard to believe it's just stress even though I have had an EKG and heart enzymes checked. Hopefully a good night's sleep in my own bed will help some. Also, I really can't report much on my dd's situation yet. Her scar is probably at its worse today. It is very swollen with much brusing of the black, purple and blue variety with a little green and yellow on the edges just for contrast. Of course, she still has the staples and because of the swelling they look like a questions mark. I just hope the line straightens out once the swelling goes down. We won't have any of the reports and such until her follow up on the 16th but she does seem to be healing well. She can walk now, go to the bathroom, etc. but sitting down and getting up are still difficult. Both her and my eldest are troopers - her for working so hard at healing and her sister for working so hard to help her and to help me help her. Thank you all for your prayers and warm wishes. Sometimes it was the only thing that kept me from crying myself to sleep at night. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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