Kari C in SC Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 (edited) I am trying so very hard to get through this day. I felt this way last year on my birthday too. This one is harder because I keep thinking he won't have a 25th or a 30th or a 40th. I know it is somewhat irrational. I realize that it is just a mark on the calendar. I know all the logical things. My heart doesn't though. I am a big birthday mom. Did parties every single year for each of my kids. And I just really wanna run away, but I can't. My daughter has a gymnastics competition in an hour and we are all going to celebrate that and then go have dinner. My family and friends are amazing and I have nothing to complain about in the world. But my heart hurts. So - instead of burdening my family more - I am just writing it here. Thanks for listening. ETA - and in one month from today he has been gone for 2 years. I guess it is just all coming in on me. Edited April 14, 2012 by Kari C in SC Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
aggieamy Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 Kari - I am so sorry. :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stayseeliz Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 Many hugs for you today! I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope your day is filled with family and lots of love! :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tap Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MrsJewelsRae Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 I don't know you, but I couldn't read this and not say something. I'm so sorry, this just breaks my heart. :( I'm sorry you lost your precious son, and that your heart is aching for him. You will see him again some day, I`ll pray for your comfort. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CountitallJoy Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 Oh, Kari :grouphug: I also lost a son. Grief knows no logic, no timetable, no normal. It has been 16.5 years for me, and honestly, last year kicked me harder - out of the blue - than just about any other. It is something that no-one can ever really understand unless they have experienced it. I am praying for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sophia Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :grouphug: I'm so sorry. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jean in Newcastle Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 I'm so sorry, Kari. :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: (I do hope that you have some kind of peace as your family expresses their love for you on this day.) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Paintedlady Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 Shedding tears for your pain and lifting you up in prayer. I hope you find a way to smile and enjoy your birthday, knowing your dear boy is in your heart. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Liz CA Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 I think it's totally normal to hurt even more at milestones and time markers like holidays. Your heart will probably always ache until you see him again. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mommyof4ks Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KristenR Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :grouphug: I wish I had some words of comfort.... but sadly, I am at a loss. My heart goes out to you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ThreeBlessings Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 No words for this really, just :grouphug:. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BMW Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :grouphug:My momma's heart hurts with you. There are no words. I can only begin to imagine and that is overwhelming to consider. May God's peace pour over like nothing else and give your heart just what it needs. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Halftime Hope Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 Kari, my heart aches for you and for MFS. What a profound loss you have experienced, not just the loss of your precious son but of the dreams for his future. :grouphug: I'm so sorry! May you be comforted today. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
torikei Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Pippen Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 Many hugs and prayers of comfort for you today. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
helena Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hilltop Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 I am so sorry. :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mynyel Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Country Mouse Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 I'm so, so sorry. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Negin Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 I don't know you, but I couldn't read this and not say something. I'm so sorry, this just breaks my heart. :( I'm sorry you lost your precious son, and that your heart is aching for him. You will see him again some day, I`ll pray for your comfort. :grouphug: This. :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Twigs Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Henriettakittycat Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :grouphug: I'm sorry. We just started year two. Our son died March 2011 in a car accident. Grief sucks. Everything sucks. I'm sorry. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
datgh Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 I can't even imagine your pain. :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
myfunnybunch Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Praying for you today. :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kalanamak Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 Our sorrows are only the flip side of the coin of our regard for someone. As time passes, I hope your mind dwells more on the other, happier side. IME, nothing can hurry this mental process. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mumto2 Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 I don't know what to say other than I am so sorry for your loss. :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GinaPagnato Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :grouphug: I'm sorry. We just started year two. Our son died March 2011 in a car accident. Grief sucks. Everything sucks. I'm sorry. :crying: To you and to Kari, :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug:. I can only imagine the hole in your heart that you walk around with every day. I'm so, so sorry. There really are no words, but you have my deepest sympathies and prayers for some measure of peace. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cathmom Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mrs Mungo Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 I'm so sorry that you're going through this. I cannot imagine. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LeslieAnneLevine Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 You are in my thoughts, Kari. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JudoMom Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JudoMom Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :grouphug: I'm sorry. We just started year two. Our son died March 2011 in a car accident. Grief sucks. Everything sucks. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug:. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lisabees Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 Always, always thinking of you, Kari. Many hugs to you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
5knights3maidens Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
merry gardens Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 Prayers for you. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Catwoman Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: You are in my thoughts and prayers today, Kari, as is your son. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DawnM Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :grouphug: Kari, I hope you can have somewhat of a happy birthday in the midst of the pain. Dawn Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
QuirkyKapers Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FloridaLisa Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 ((((((Kari,))))))) I will say prayers for you today and tonight. I'm so sorry for your loss. It was huge and is still is huge. Much, much grace and peace to you today as you continue to put one foot in front of the other in these hard days. Lisa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mrbmom77 Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Harriet Vane Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Remudamom Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 Of course your heart hurts. I'm so sorry, I can't even imagine. Kari, you are in my prayers. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Impish Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Thea Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :hug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MamaT Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 :grouphug: Kari, there are no words. :grouphug: Remember when we agreed to pray for each other's boys? I still have your name beside Tyler's in my prayer journal, and continue to pray for you daily. I wish there was more I could do. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
-M- Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 My heart goes out to you, Kari. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
southcarolinamom Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 Oh, Kari, I'm so sorry. No words. Just lots of :grouphug::grouphug: and prayers. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hot Lava Mama Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 I can't even begin to imagine how hard that is. My heart goes out to you. I hope having the busy schedule makes it better so you "can't" anguish alone. I'm really, really sorry. I hope your heart heals. Hot Lava Mama Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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