Night Elf Posted December 11, 2011 Share Posted December 11, 2011 Last night I wrapped all the gifts, except for mine. I am not bringing them out until Christmas day, but if I did bring them out, they would be a very small stack under our new 7.5 ft. tree. It doesn't exactly fit in with my idea of presents spilling out from underneath the tree. Oh I know Christmas isn't about the presents. But I've only just realized what is bothering me. Basically it all boils down to the same issue I've been trying to grapple with for a year now. My kids are growing up! I almost feel like I'm beginning to suffer with empty nest syndrome, except they all still live with me. Mostly I'm fine and then one little thing will hit me that brings the reality back to me. As I was sitting here this morning drinking my coffee, I was looking at the tree as if it was going to stand above all these packages with toys spread out in front of it: a play-kitchen, a ride-on truck, large fire truck with ladder extended high, scooters, an easel, a large Eeyore stuffed animal and a huge bouncy ball. I mean those were fun Christmases! Yeah, I still enjoy Christmases without those things, and I'll still love every minute of this Christmas with the smaller wrapped gifts (a book is just much smaller than a fire truck!). But our past couple of Christmases saw everyone retire back to their rooms after the opening of gifts which doesn't last long because there are only 4 per person. It's almost anticlimactic after my usual advent-following-anticipation-building leadup to Christmas day. Gone are the days of playing with the toys and games in the living room all day. Aww.. I'm just bummed because I feel like Christmas has lost its glitter. Unfortunately, religion simply doesn't play a part in our day. I'm the only one in the house who believes in God. I used to light a candle in honor of Jesus and I think I'll do that again this year. It will be my own little celebration. Maybe I'll even go to Christmas Day Worship at my former church I haven't attended in 6 years. But it's something I would have to do alone without my family. Oh, I don't mean to sound all gloomy. I still love the holiday season. I just think I need to work on an attitude adjustment this year. It's hard to make internal changes, but they usually make me a better person. :) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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