bettyandbob Posted November 17, 2011 Share Posted November 17, 2011 I'm a wreck. My oldest is 2E and my youngest has down syndrome. My dd is in between and needs attention too. Oldest sucks the life out of our family. I am emotionally spent and have for years--he's a senior in high school now. Everything thing we do is decided upon based on how we think oldest will handle it. He is highly gifted, NVLD, has anxiety, depression, has sensory issues, and lots of allergies. I've totally lost my ability to keep my cool when he acts out and have said some pretty horrible things. I'm truly angry that due oldest's behavior I'm too emotionally spent to do remediation work with youngest. There was a huge outburst last night. This morning dh said "these things always happen when they (the kids) are with you." That truly killed me. He has apologized. I've been fantasizing about getting in the car after my job on Saturday with some cash and driving far south. Camping on the beach in south Florida through the Thanksgiving holiday. Just sleeping in a tent in a cheap campground with a pile of library, punctuating the time with walking on the beach and swimming (I started to wonder about sharks, but I love swimming in the ocean and dh and oldest hate the beach so we don't go). This is a much healthier fantasy than another I've had all fall. It actually sounds doable. Is it wrong to want this. Do you every get to the point that you feel your soul has been sucked out of you and it's been that way a long time? How do you get back to a good mental state? How do you maintain caring for yourself? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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