Gratia271 Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 It is so hard to write this after holding out much hope for the past year, but we found out today that my precious nephew (cancer survivor) will likely never walk among other bad things I can't bring myself to discuss. I don't even know what kind of prayer to ask for other than a miracle. So many terrible things have struck our family over the past several years that I really feel abandoned by God. I used to think I was a strong person, and I am so levelled by the things that have happened to my husband, to our precious nephew, to my mom.... It's not my nature to share things with people, and I hope I am not dumping on you kind ladies here but we could really use prayer. I have managed to be strong for others for most of my life and am now so beaten down I don't know what to do. Please ask God that I can be strong for my brother. He needs me more than ever right now, and I adore him and his precious little boy. My husband also needs me more than ever right now, and I don't want to fail him. My highest ethic has always been to honor and be strong for my family, but I am faltering. Please pray that I can be what they need. It's so hard to be the source of hope for these two men whom I adore when I feel so hopeless. I feel like a liar and a fraud because I cannot honestly say to them that I believe God cares. I cannot even bring myself to attend church for my feeling that it would be hypocritical. Last summer I envisioned this beautiful little boy walking and running around our backyard with all of the other children. I guess it was just my stupid attempt to believe something good could come from all of the horror of his first eight months of life which were spent trying to save him and to restore him. He little body has endured so much. Where is the mercy? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
unsinkable Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 :grouphug: I am so sorry! I'll keep you in my prayers! :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kathy in Richmond Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 Praying for you here! :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Harriet Vane Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sadiegirl Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 :grouphug: So sorry for the family. Hoping for guidance, strength and a sense of peace for all. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ScoutTN Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 praying! :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gingersmom Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poke Salad Annie Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 :grouphug: There have been times over this past year when I've felt that I've been hanging on by a tether connected to a space capsule, floating along out in the darkness, barely hanging on. The darkness is cold and empty and I've cried out to God for help to pull me in. Some days are worse than others, but know that in some way I have only a part of understanding about how you may feel. Hugs to you today and prayers also. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wapiti Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 praying :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dani3boys Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 :grouphug: I'm so sorry for all your family is going through. I have no words of wisdom, but I'll pray for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lulubelle Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 :grouphug:, prayer and strength to you and your family. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tress Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 I'm praying for you and your family. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stacia Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ame E. Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 for you and your family... Ame Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PentecostalMom Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 Will pray. I know how hard it is to trust Him when you pray for things that don't come to pass, especially for healing for a child. I have one in heaven myself. Please don't abandon God. He can be YOUR strength so you can be strong for the men you adore. Cry out, scream, yell, be angry! He can take it, He will listen, and He understands that we are only human. Hugs and prayers as you go through these extremely difficult times. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Remudamom Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 Praying for your miracle. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Country Mouse Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
elegantlion Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: praying for you and your family. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tammyla Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 :grouphug:prayers:grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheCoffeeChick Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 :crying: Praying. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Catwoman Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Please don't ever think you can't come here and ask for prayers -- we're here for you! I'll pray for the miracle your nephew needs, as well as for you and the rest of your family. But really, if you need to ask for prayers, or talk, or just vent when things get unbearable, please don't hesitate to post. :grouphug: Cat Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
NoPlaceLikeHome Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Starr Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 I'm so sorry. I'm praying for your strength and for all of your family. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sparkle Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 Praying for you and your nephew. I have been in that spot where I could NOT pray for myself, but I could ask other people to pray for me, and trust in their prayers. So I will gladly pray for you :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Heatherwith4 Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 :grouphug: I'm so, so sorry. I am praying for you and your family. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TeaTotaler Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 :grouphug: I am so sorry. Will be praying. Take care. VH Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MamaT Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 :grouphug: and prayers for you, your dh, your brother, and your nephew. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FaithManor Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 Praying here! I wish there were words. There aren't. Please don't feel that you are burdening anyone. It's our joy to pray for you. Faith Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Colleen in NS Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 It's so hard to be the source of hope for these two men whom I adore when I feel so hopeless. I feel like a liar and a fraud because I cannot honestly say to them that I believe God cares. .......Where is the mercy? :grouphug::crying::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Denise in IN Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 Praying for you and your family through this hard time. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mommaduck Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 Lord have mercy! Praying. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
momof3sofar Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: I'm so sorry for all the pain your family is going through right now. Please PLEASE come here for prayers and support. I do not post here often and the times I have I've asked for prayer as well. Prayer does not always change our situation but it does help us to get through it. Dawn Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Gratia271 Posted January 27, 2011 Author Share Posted January 27, 2011 Thank you, ladies, for all of your kind words. I have two people IRL I can actually be real with about struggles, and it means so much to know I can bring this before all of you. You are all such a blessing! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mommyfaithe Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 I would be honored to pray for you and your family. That is what we are here for...to lean on eachother when we can not hold ourselves up any longer. You are in my heart and my prayers along with your husband, brother and nephew. :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Faithe Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jenL Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 No words, just prayers. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jelbe5 Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 :grouphug: Praying for you and your family. I have a son with autism and have struggled with sadness and disappointment. I have gained strength and comfort in believing that God has a good plan, even if it is not obvious to me at this time. I pray that in time you will find such comfort, too. Adrianne in IL Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Melissa in Australia Posted January 27, 2011 Share Posted January 27, 2011 :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Negin Posted January 28, 2011 Share Posted January 28, 2011 :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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