My Dh taught me to lie down on the floor, put left foot over right knee and pull right knee toward me. Repeat other side. Works well

Did they settle in GA?

None of the young adults in my world smokes except for my older step son. My neighbor smokes and it is annoying when that nasty smell makes its way into my yard.

He is adorable @Elizabeth86

Thanks everyone. It really does help to know it isn't just me. Another thing my mind does while I am sleeping is attempt simple math problems. Last night while I slept I was trying to work out how old one of my nieces will be this year. Also I found that poem I wrote about the war I was in my dream when I was 16. It was all about my now xh. One line is ‘you held the weapon, the target was me’. Lol. I guess I should have listened to my dreams.

Thanks

Same girl. I wrote a entire poem about a nightmare war dream I had……I was 16. I am telling you…..my dreams are insane. Sometimes they are glorious. Like when I am flying through the air and my now dead dog is flying next to me chasing a duck.

Thank you, In my youth my go to was cleaning……I would clean like a mad woman. On my hands and knees scrubbing my floors etc. then we got a house and I moved on to the yard. I raked leaves and weeded flower beds etc. It still works somewhat. I still clean through the worst times. I work in the yard. I plant flowers. Something feels worse now. My age maybe? My energy level? I don’t know.

Lol Nothing? Like, that is a normal dream for 16 year olds?

When I was 16 I had a dream that the boy who was madly in love with me and promising me the world…..well I opened an oven door and there was his head on a platter. I have never forgotten that dream even though I married him and had a child with him and stayed married to him for 26 mostly horrible years. So yes I do believe I might be insane. Or possibly a genius. 😂

I doubt I could take that. I have tried a blood pressure med for my AFib and with in 3 days my blood pressure dropped dangerously low. My dreams are not generally terrifying….but yes disturbing. I think dreams are a usually a way of working things out…..that is why I have began to write them down.

I definitely think it’s no big deal to have him in a few and out of a few.

Beats me. It has just occurred to me recently it might not be normal.

In my precious MIL’s hallway is a huge portrait of her with her children on the day she married her second husband. Her two oldest were married and the oldest had 2 children…. They were all there. Including my dh’s wife. It is what it is. I have been tempted to put a picture of myself over xwifes face.

My mom just told me she has documents showing her maternal great grandmother inherited slaves. They lived in Missouri .

I know.

I think…. Most of my life.

I am going to be 59 this year. I had my last period when I was 42ish. I don’t think this is perimenopausal. I have discussed a bit of this with my GP. He wanted to put me on SSRI, which I will never do. I hate them with a passion. He did agreed to the Klonopin that I asked for if I can only take it for occasional sleep issues. Honestly, running down my thoughts would be absolutely impossible. Just reading over my recorded dream is enough to make you think I am absolutely insane.

I do all of the things. I also have a prescription for Klonopin when I cannot sleep. I do not take it during the day because I’m pretty much a lightweight. And I do not take it every night maybe three times per week.

I’m so sorry that you are suffering in this way. I will say mine does not seem to be self loathing. It is more disbelief/deep sadness/confusion.

Well, I have been recording, writing down my dreams for two years. I’m not sure if it’s helping or just perpetuating the cycle of crazy dreams. I am Probably insane.

Years. I guess I am just now putting words to how I’ve been feeling.

Lol no medications or alcohol. I mean I do drink wine sometimes but I am talking about non stop all day long my brain won’t stop. Or night either.

I think there is something wrong with my mind. My brain? 🤷🏻‍♀️ I cannot shut it off. The conversations are non stop and the memories of long ago or last night are all consuming. I literally feel like I am going drown and none of my usual tricks are working. And the dreams. Good Gravy. Insanity.

I think baskets are your best bet. Without going too custom.