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  1. It's not at our house, and my friends are picking me up.They weren't invited (or necessarily not wanted-well my husband doesn't want them there I know, I mean by others), but they're coming anyway.
  2. Adding: I told my husband I will no longer go to the churches he's attracted to after the elders questioning my salvation, and I have not. He's drawn to churches that are unhealthy
  3. My husband called the elders on me again. He says it's to help us, but it's always to set me straight. He has never gone when I'm at my wit's end with him or for his own faults and failings, only for mine. He has done this over and over again during our marriage We're all meeting tonight. It's so humiliating to have your worst out there. This church is the best we've been to and it's one of the leaders wives who told me she believes my husband is a narcissist. I think it will go better than last. The last time the church elders were led by my husband to question my salvation and lead me in the sinners prayer as I sobbed. My friends assure me this could be good to get things more out in the light and support for me. I've never had that outcome though.
  4. He's a legend in his own mind. It's going nowhere. He's at best a mediocre singer and his lyrics are cheesy, preachy, and just off base in several ways. Edit: his mom is funding and cheerleading the whole thing.
  5. I called the local DV hotline and got voicemail. Left a message. I called about a year ago but didn't get far and chickened out. They were really great though. I'm pretty sure they offer counseling. I think that's the best place to start and hopefully a plan and some clarification in my thoughts can start. I think this is a good step and it gives me some hope and calm. Ty.
  6. Everything just sucks and is so twisted right now. I feel hopeless.
  7. Sorry, I do have to take a break from postibg for a bit, but thank you. I will get back here as soon as possible and try to answer questions.
  8. No family. I have good friends though, thankfully. My best friend moved back last summer, and she's been shocked at the abusive dynamics and led the recent confrontation.
  9. I don't think he would physically hurt us. He's been trying to turn my kids against me for years though. I don't want to go into detail, but it's bad. I know that would exponentially increase. My biggest fear is losing my kids relationship in the process because he goes there now, you know?
  10. I walk away when things cross boundaries and tell him why. I speak up everytime. Really. This is good stuff. Thank you.
  11. Without going into too much detail, I'm in a spiritually abusive marriage. It used to be murky, grey, and confusing to me, but I'd stand up to him each and every time he said it did something awful anyway. Thankfully, It was witnessed by friends recently who confronted him, and this has given me a lot of courage. I was shocked but so thankful he said those things to others and it was out for others to see. It's next level now though. He told my son last night that he wasn't saved and looked at me with disgust and told me he's talking to me next. He had told me he needed to "meet with me" earlier in the day. I knew it was probably about my salvation again. He said horrible, awful things to my son. That he has no fruit, his life doesn't line up with the scriptures, and so much more. My husband says he's "calling us out" and that he has a special revelation and understanding from the Lord about salvation and God has called him to call out the many in the church who think they're saved but are not. He believes he's God's chosen one to purify the church and herald in a great revival before the Lord comes. For many years he has talked about his special ministry and his time has come. He's making a CD and believes his music will change the world. He has "prepared me" in a talk to be famous after it comes out. He is a narcissist who sucked me in a changed abruptly after we married. Someone came to me several years ago and told me they believed my husband was a narcissist and after looking it up, my life and our relationship (never has been one in the true sense of the word) made so much sense. He was raised by a narcissist mother who let him treat her like trash. He was raised very wealthy, and given anything he wanted. He's was a master manipulater at a very young age. I know this can't go on, but I don't know what to do. I feel so stuck. I want to leave but I don't know how that's possible. I have chronic illnesses, and we live in a crazy expensive rental housing area with a housing shortage. If I had all the resources in the world, I'd get my own place, legally separate, and tell him unless he goes to counseling indefinitely and sees and confesses and gets help for his abusive behavior, we're not getting back together or putting our children through his carp. He's also mentally ill. Before he came to Jesus, he thought he was Jesus, then the devil. He was not in anyway raised in a Christian home or ever went to church, so I don't know where all that stuff came from for him. He was in a psych ward for sometime, but I don't know what the official diagnosis was. He believes he was demon possessed, which I've never agreed with. I don't ever see him saying he is mentally ill. So there's my craptastic situation. I really do not know what I can do to get out.
  12. As it should be. Doesn't take away his loved one's pain and loss but does give them justice.
  13. This is happening to us right now. We have a housing shortage in our area, so the possibility of us being homeless was very real. We know several families who have had to do temporary, emergency housing situations, some for as long as 5-6 months. Our current rental homes sold, and thankfully we were able to find another rental. We did get a 60-day notice at least. Hoping everything works out well for your family and the area you live right now is not in as much crisis as others. (((Hugs)))
  14. Yep. I said nothing of the sort. The "really" was directed at the monologue and wild assumptions made by a pp. I was not engaging with the content itself.
  15. I get that. With previous gun charges though, Wright resisting arrest and getting back in the car was probably especially concerning What if he's got a gun in there and is reaching for it? It happens all the time. It just happened today. https://www.google.com/amp/s/dfw.cbslocal.com/2021/04/14/burleson-police-officer-shot-multiple-times-traffic-stop/amp/
  16. It was originally reported in the news that he was pulled over because of a hanging air freshener on his rear view mirror, which is illegal in Minnesota. Reports are now saying expired tags.
  17. I'm waiting until more info comes out to understand the situation better, but recently read this info. https://www.lawofficer.com/daunte-wright-was-facing-attempted-armed-robbery-charge-at-time-of-death/ Edit: I know nothing about this site. Just Googled for updated information, and this article came up.
  18. Oh, yes! I'm starting to notice wrinkle improvement now that I've been using it under my eyes, on lids, and above lip for a good month or do. I even apply two thin layers above lips. I'm noticing most improvement on lids and above lips. Crows feet have softened a bit. My kids are extremely creepy and hooded. Definite lifting and smoothing happening there.
  19. Well, bummer. I tried upping my Tretinion .005 but was told by my provider that I can only go from .035 to .05, followed by .07, and then .14. They don't do custom percentages for trent, so I'm just upping to .05
  20. Yes, it's tricky catching the next order! I just realized though that now that I'm getting a two month supply (free trial was just a month's worth), I'll only be able to up .005 every two months. Hm, maybe I'll do a .01 jump with every order instead. I love that with Curology, you can go up more slowly than starting with .025, jumping to .05 and then have to go all the way up to .1.
  21. No wrinkles improvement here either, but I probably haven't been back on Tretinion long enough to see results. I was only doing .025 a bit before Curology and am at .035 with it. I'm upping .005 each month until I get to .1.
  22. Oops, forgot. The Nuetrogena cleansing oil really removes all traces of make up. I've tested by running a cotton ball with toner afterwards and no residue. I love this stuff.
  23. I'm loving Curology and my skin is looking fabulous. Thank you for the recommendations. PM routine: Cleanse with Nuetrogena Ultra light cleansing oil on dry skin, add water, lather, rinse. Apply Tretinion 20 minutes or more later. Moisture 20 or so minutes after. AM routine: Double cleanse with Nuetrogena Ultra Light Cleansing Oil followed by Nuetrogena Hydro Boost gentle cleansing lotion (fragrance free!) Moisturizer with spf followed by Elta tinted mineral sunscreen. Skin is glowing!
  24. Weird, my phone doesn't do that. And I'm almost always in landscape mode because my eyes need the larger letters!
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