OP, I am so sorry you are hurting. :grouphug: I don't look at things like this as God is responsible, but rather that He allowed it. I think it grieves Him when things like this happen. The reason for pain, suffering and death is sin( I don't mean these 19 men's sin, I mean sin in general as in sin = the fall). God created the World perfect with no death, no pain, no suffering, but because of sin there are these things in the world. One day everything will be made right when Jesus returns. We aren't promised that life will be easy and there will be suffering. Our hope is in Jesus. Even though we die an earthly death, we will one day live again with Him and there will be NO more pain! NO more death! NO more tears!