I remember hearing a sermon years ago that had a huge effect on my spiritual walk at the time. I'm probably going to do a terrible job at paraphrasing, but hopefully you'll get the gist of it. It was about Christians who almost become paralyzed over praying for the next step. The preacher started quoting scripture about Paul, and how when he finished in one town, he got up and went to the next town. He didn't spend days or weeks praying about where he should go next. He got up and went, trusting that if the direction he was heading was not the "right" one, God would stop him and show him the right way.
The basic idea is that we are given this life to live, and we are allowed to make choices and decisions. That is part of the freedom of free will. The fact that things are tough for you right now isn't an indication that you somehow made the wrong choice. It's just a set of obstacles that, once you've gotten past, will make you a stronger person. :grouphug: