I have only recently started lurking here...and I think this is my first post...but anyway. :)
I am on an anti-depressant. I have tried most of the things you've suggested too...what are the natural antidepressants that you mentioned?
I tried St. John's Wort, evening primrose, 5-HTP, and one other thing I can't remember.
I was desperate, my depression was getting worse and definitely affecting our lives. So, the antidepressant has been a life saver for me!! For me, I knew that when I could not handle my own family and household, when I was falling apart on a regular basis, and it was affecting my children that I had to do *something.* It definitely is a very personal thing as well as a hard decision to make. :grouphug:
The one other thing that worked for me for awhile was going off sugar...since you already eat pretty healthy, you may already do it...just thought i'd throw that out there.
I'm so sorry you are struggling...depression is a very hard place to be. I write about it a lot on my blog if you're interested. :)