I will look into the school option. The meds have eliminated the "zero to rage" incidents that used to be every time something upset her. I went through training with my older daughter to learn de-escalation strategies, but when DD4 used to go from zero to rage in seconds, they really didn't work. We were taught over and over about preventing escalation, but until we had her on meds, there was no way to prevent it unless we never said no to anything. The adoption factor causes a lot of people to see it differently, and I don't know whether that is the underlying problem or that DD4 just has these issues. It's just like with the outbursts; she never directs it at us- she did with her foster mother in the other country, but she really loves everyone here and has never directed anything at us. Her brain just seems to be stuck in a rut. So, when I traveled for 5 days, she got scared and felt insecure, so her brain pathway went right back to the "fight" mode she had lived in for so long. I came back, and things calmed down (for her).

My other two bio kids are different in the way the cope with vicissitudes of life- they are much like DH. They also, in all fairness, are not around nearly as much which is to your point about getting out and away. DD18 is a college intern full time and will head to uni this fall, so she doesn't deal with much pertaining to DD4. Like DH, she just deals with the people who are in the trenches all day long.

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It is so difficult to stay on top and manage everything that life requires. There is so much to relearn. DD18 jokes with students she tutors that you really have to stay in the middle of all of it, or so much of the details eek out of your brain.. :)

Because we cast such a wide net and schools vary widely, I just have my DC take them. It is relatively easy for them to take the tests and is simply not worth the potential disadvantage to them if they didn't take the tests.

Funny! DD18 will be at Ohio State this fall, and I drive my son to Columbus regularly for fencing. It seems like I'm there all the time. Maybe I should move there. :tongue_smilie:

We are in Indiana currently, so that is not too far way I am guessing. I will check it out.

That is interesting. We were told to keep her on the trampoline as much as possible. I have been thinking I need to find ways to calm her, but dr. said all the exercise would be helpful to accomplish that.

You are so right. I am going off of what developmental ped said while issuing disclaimers about not knowing for sure. I honestly am in the dark about all of this and am largely ignorant. From the one meeting we had with a social worker who evaluated all three for attachment (attachment specialist), she said they all had integrated quite well and were in a good place attachment wise. My little girl loves everyone here, but I seem to be the one who grounds her, at least as grounded as she can be at this point. My absence last week was really ugly for everyone still at home. Yet, when I returned, she was more agreeable in the house for everyone, not just me. So I think maybe it is that I am her security? Honestly, I look for patterns and there aren't any. I'm pretty stupid about all of this and have never dealt with anything like it before. I really thought our adoption agency would try to help with support systems. DH is p*ssed at this point about their poor support system.

It is so difficult to keep her calm. We are always wracking our brain trying to find ways to keep her in a good place once she is there. I told DH it is beyond draining, and I am not sure what we even get done beside managing the eating ritual, drink ritual, bathroom ritual,dressing ritual. Somedays, it just seems insane trying to help her get in or stay in a good place.

Oh Elizabeth, I am going to meet with an OT early next week if dr. can work it out. I will try to do some reading and research to find out what I should be asking them. When the meds calm her down, she seems to do better with puzzles and books with me. We also have her jump on the trampoline as much as possible to help with her need for movement.

They put her on Tenex. She no longer gets "way" out of control, so it seems to be helping her. When she gets upset now, it often looks more like a typical 3 year old response. When I am away, though, nothing consoles her. So when I took my trip, I think she became fearful or something because she wouldn't comply with anything. The meds keep her from being belligerent, but when she is in a bad place she is still not compliant.

Our private adoption agency provides zero support. DD4 doesn't have RAD. She has attached to all of us and, on good days or good moments, she is delightful. She has zero frustration threshold, doesn't sleep or eat well, and presents with a lot of sensory issues. She is also a very willful child. The difficult part is that it's like she cannot help herself because she loves us, hugs us, and seems to want to do the right thing but she simply cannot do it in the moment. She has severe behavior dysregulation and cannot control her emotions in the moment. She never directs the rage at others though; it's simply hitting things, throwing things. She is also highly intuitive. It's very hard to figure out. My biological kids have no issues whatsoever. The problem emerging with DD15 is the stress and anxiety she feels as a result of my little girl's troubles.

Oh, Elizabeth, I will reach out to the school and see what I can find out. The friends and one famly member we have in the PS system here are not too promising, but I will talk to them again to see what and how they may help. Thanks so much for sharing your experience. Arcadia, My family has a long history too of highly gifted and high empaths, and the combination can be very difficult. All three of my biological kids are like me this way, but DD18 and DS15 cope more like DH (also highly gifted). I'm not sure how that works out, but they definitely cope better.

I mentioned that to DD15, and the whole idea is upsetting to her. I feel like I am holding a losing hand. When I try to help either one of them, very difficult emotions emerge. Since DD4 falls apart away from me, I dread sending her to people who will label her and put her in a corner. DH and I brought her home as our daughter so she could be spared a life of stereotypes and judgment. She is so very difficult, but underneath the ugliness I see this glimmer of beauty and strength that I want to bring out. I just don't know how, and I understand why others simply wouldn't bother trying to. Our adoption specialists have been worthless. Our ped. is trying to get us in different places. It's just ridiculously difficult with wait lists.

I don't know whether counseling would help. She gets her intuitive/high empath personality from me, and we are both struggling far more than others around here. Unfortunately, most of the care devolves on us as well. Very.bad.combo. DH is concerned for us but has no idea how to help. I am going to take her to the dr. to see if they can give her something to take as needed for stress and/or sleep. I worry so much about her. Like you, I have had to build emotional walls over my lifetime with people sometimes to protect myself. I think my four year old twin son was highly favored by his foster mom in the other country, and his twin sister was poorly treated in comparison. I think this is why she is so developmentally delayed by comparison because her little body was always in stress/fight mode so she just couldn't develop. In fairness, she does have a very feisty temperament compared to her "calm by nature" twin brother.

I don't remember the thread, but if I recall correctly, the reviews for PaH comp sci are mixed. Some students liked it and did well. Others were not too keen.

thank you so much for the recommendations! I will check them out.

I am going to try to locate help for around the house. DD15 is very emotionally attached to DD4 and keyed into her emotions. She is a high empath and highly intuitive, so she keenly feels the pain and emotions of those she loves. I think that is the core problem for her in coping. They don't share a room. Over the years, DH and I have been through a lot so his primary concern is for my coping at this point. He encouraged me to fly with DS15 for competition so I could get a break. But things fell apart quickly with my little girl, who just lost it. Usually when I travel with my son to competitions, I take her with me to minimize disruptions. It just gets so draining, and I go downhill as a result of no break. But when I take a break, it falls apart at home. I keep telling DD4's pediatrician that I don't have one child; I have six. We adopted three children together because they are a sibling group. It's hard for these children to find families, and we wanted to give them a family instead of seeing them on a waiting child list, where they would likely have never been placed. We carefully evaluated forms filled out to determine what we could contend with, and long story short Eastern European countries are known for lying and misrepresenting situations (both our intl. adoption docs told us this after the fact). So we have been blindsided by many of the problems we're faced with. And, yes, we now have two sets of twins. My little girl's twin brother has no significant issues. That's what puzzles the doctors because they said alcoholism and drug abuse is rampant in Eastern European countries and problems are seen in adopted kiddos as a result. But it is not really plausible here according to them because she has a twin brother with no issues.

Thanks for sharing this. I am so sorry! It really sucks for your conscientious son. And for a first experience, that has to be so tough. I can say from our experience, the only bad class for AP purposes at PaH we have experienced is AP Bio. IOther teachers there have been quite good. Some are not fabulous but do a good job preparing students for the AP exam.

The answer to that question depends on the subject and on the student. SAT subject tests are usually minutiae type questions, so for global, big picture people, they may be harder than AP exams. My biological kids are outstanding writers, so the AP essay exams which are difficult for many students are much easier than the m/c type questions over minutiae that comprise subject tests. That's also why students are encouraged to take subject tests as soon as the course is over.

I don't know whether they are pointless or not. My bio kids test well and easily, and it is a simple way to validate a home school transcript and course work. If it were difficult and anxiety-producing, I would think twice. DD applied with them along with AP scores and was offered top merit scholarships everywhere she applied. In every single competitive interview she had (also during high school interviews), they never asked one question about her transcript nor did they ask for an explanation of any course work she completed. Other home school friends (w/o all of the scores) have been asked a lot of questions about their transcripts and course work during interviews, presumably to validate what they had done. It's purely correlative, so maybe there is something to it and maybe there isn't. Who knows?

Yes, University of Kentucky was full ride + stipends and research opportunities for my NMF DD this past year. I don't know if it will change in the future but as of entering class of 2017, it was still available. Vanderbilt also has several opportunities. DD was offered Cornelius Vanderbilt scholarship, which is their highest merit scholarship and covers full tuition + stipends. So, room and board is left to pay in that case. There are further departmental scholarships there, though, which can further defray costs. Vandy also offers a renewable scholarship each year for NMF (I think it was 2k but am not positive, but it is for each year and not just the first year), so I think we would have been left with about 10k out of pocket per year. Boston College also offers full tuition scholarship. It's the Gabelli scholarship, and includes travel expenses for international travel which is part of the scholarship program. So, you are left with room and board. FYI, the students who interview and accept it will practically never be home, including spring break, some winter holidays, and summers. Just saying this before anyone jumps through the hoops, travels for interviews, etc.. only to discover they don't want to be away from their family more or less an entire 4 years.

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DD has a friend who is attending IUPUI on a full-ride, so I know it is available. I am not sure how many students it is available to, though. DD is attending the Ohio State University on a full COA scholarship as Eminence fellow and Stamps Scholar. Each year, Ohio State chooses 24-28 students from an entering class of about 8000 to receive the full scholarship. Out of the 24-28 students, 4-5 are ultimately selected as Stamps scholars. ETA: IUPUI scholarship is Gerald Bepko scholarship. It turns out three of DD's friends have received this. One of them did combined BS/MS in 5 years, so she will only have to pay for 1 year of the grad school. As DD pointed out, once you have these types of scholarships, so many other types of scholarships follow because you are already known/identified. Pretty cool!