I have no idea what to do. I am just very desperate to help him. So the genetics you mentioned, is this done by lab? I do want to do less invasive treatment for him first. If the 5HTP works, definitely he should try it first. Now I give him (and myself) D3, E, and B-complex daily. His school give the students this whole week off and he is much better and much less irritable. He sleeps in and he cooks yummy food for himself and for the family. He will have the next 8 weeks at home for 5 weeks distance learning and 3 weeks off for holidays. Before this he has been in person schooling almost 6 days a week because of added debate and theater hours. Hopefully the slowing down will ease his stress and we will have time to deal with it. Thanks a lot, PeterPan.

Ds15 is having issues with sleep and anger and anxiety. His counselor says he should start SSRI. I am very concerned. I would like to try something with no or little side effects. I hope his doctor can prescribe Alpha Stim to start.

I get anxious easily. And then wearing a mask while feeling anxious in a crowded grocery store and knowing it's unsafe to take off the mask makes it even worse. I totally understand this. I try to take long deep breaths to reset the pace.

If people who can homeschool do homeschool in 2020-2021, it not only only keeps their own children safe, but helps with the safer openings of schools for those who can't homeschool.

Read this. https://gen.medium.com/i-spent-three-weeks-in-school-with-kids-under-covid-19-21b78c1a9339?fbclid=IwAR1ADVXP8LEuI1cooU4KQnxbChLYAPAR0zfNwergQNggJKSXC49ovqPQwnM

I do do believe there's such thing as "fear fatigue". It is exhausting to be on high alert for long. I agree with Garga. It is not that the risk is any lower, it's that we know more and have been living with it longer now. I used to have this doomed feeling, anxious to know when is the end. Now I know there is probably no end. I figure after all the precautions I take, if I get infected and die, then I can't help it. It's OK to die.

I totally agree! Ds17 is introverted and would never go to a regular high school. He is happily homeschooled and now going full time 12th for DE classes.

Ds17 will do his 12th grade year as DE student at our state university. Ds15 went to a nearby small private Christian high school for 9th grade last school year. I signed him up online homeschool classes for fear the virus would change everything for next school year at the private high school. But then the rioting and burning and destroying happened. My whole neighborhood still reeks of reminant smoke from so many businesses burned to the ground. That actually changed our decision for schooling for him. We think he needs to be with his high school community, riding the virus waves and processing social unrest with his peers and teachers. He is prone to feeling depressed from isolation due to homeschooling. He craves daily interaction with people his age and live, direct instruction in person for each subject in a class setting. So yes, there is higher risk and uncertainty, but for this kid, continuing with the school community he invested in for a year and enjoyed is the right schooling option. So I have learned a lot about living with insecurity, risks, and willingness to accept the possible undesirable consequences.

I am very careful. I haven't been to any crowded places except the two days volunteering to help my virus and riot-induced food famined (due to rioting, looting, burning down grocery stores and pharmacies and post office in my immediate neighborhood) neighbors. And I would not have subjected myself to the exposure to the people who had CV or cared for CV patients had I known what situation I got myself into. With that said, I believe no matter how careful you are, you cannot be guaranteed safe from the virus 100%. We need to be careful, but not so careful that it drives us nuts and into the ground. To live is to risk. Wise, careful people as well as foolish, reckless people die from accidents of all sorts alike.

My city had the largest, longest protests and it has not caused a spike. Every day now still many people go to George Floyd memorial site. Some wear masks, some don't. I am pleasantly surprised crowded, loudly yelling protests do not cause spikes.

We have been seeing my parents-in-law indoors at their house with no mask ever since Mother's Day. I mentioned ds and I once volunteered for 10 hours indoors in two days following my city's riots and were exposed to a CV nurse who had CV and a few people who had or whose immediate family members were having CV. That was June 4 and 5. We did not see my in-laws for two weeks just to be safe to not infect them in case ds and I were infected. So far, no problem. We drove 4 hours one way for our North Shore getaway June 22-24. We have had no problem. Yesterday I brought ds15 for a haircut and Target store clothes shopping. The barber has a sign on the door "no mask, no service" but he wore his mask only to cover his mouth, with his nose fully exposed. Another customer who had his haircut by another barber wore his mask exactly the same way. So what's the point of "no mask, no service"? My son's school will fully open with all students and full day schedule on August 24.

Mid March. March 16 to be exact. That was the first time I went shopping after both ds's college and high school stopped in-person instruction and went online. I had one dust filtering N95 mask dh bought (a box of 10. He and ds used 6 and 4 were left) a few years ago for a big house project. At that time I was nervous people would judge me for even having any kind of N95 mask. So I put a bandana on top of it. At Target store where I went to get ds's prescription medicine, there were few people with masks. I felt self-conscious and short of breath due to stress. I also went to ALDI and got lots of dry food and fresh food. When I got home, I wiped down everything with disinfectant wipes and quarantined some food in the porch. Then I wiped down the steering wheel, the car door, the house door knob, and anything I touched. Then I went to the shower. After that first time I did the same routine: shop, disinfect, shower. As time goes by, I become less nervous. A friend of ours has four children, she shops every 10 days and never disinfects her grocery or anything she brings into her house. I also begin to relax about my shop disinfect shower routine and feel much less exhausted from all the tensing up and the disinfecting. A neighbor of mine is a retired nurse. She and I always walk our dogs together or simply chitchat in her house over a cup of tea and snack for the dogs and for us. In Mid March we stopped seeing each other for a few days. The first few times when I dropped by her house to say hi, I picked up a random small rock in her yard and used it to press the doorbell button and then put it back where it was to reduce contaminating her door. Now I continue to wear a good mask when I go indoor shopping, wash my hands a few times a day, and keep a good distance with people. Not touching my face without first washing my hands has become an ingrained habit. But I have stopped disinfecting. we took a family trip to North Shore of Lake Superior at an ari B and B. We hiked trails and enjoyed some patio seating restaurant food once. We did some hammock hanging right by the lake, tranquil. A nice time away from the lock down and the riots. Ds is in school three hours a day with a mask. He has five classmates and a teacher. This is a good practice for the full going back to school in late August,

I will probably order some Happy masks.

I call MIL and FiL mom and dad, I would prefer my future daughters-in-law to call me by what I prefer: mom. This is my culture. I cannot imagine calling MiL her first name.

Been praying for him. Hope for good news update.