When I went in for my 2nd ds's ultrasound, I was really nervous because I knew I would feel guilty if I was sad to find out I was having another boy. To make matters worse, the ultrasound machine recorded the audio of what we were saying along with the video of the baby. So, when the doctor told me it was a boy I was heard in the background saying something like "I thought so." The disappointment is very obvious even though I was trying to hide it.
In the car I immediately started talking about how much fun it would be to raise two boys, they would be close, etc. I felt so guilty that I was disappointed.
Somehow when the boys were preschoolers, somebody accidentally taped a show over the ultrasound video so I no longer have "evidence". :lol:
The boys have a very close relationship, spend most of their time together, etc. It has been a good thing. Yes, I always did want a daughter, but I'm okay with not having one.