So, I was diagnosed with Bipolar in about 2010 I think. It took at least a few months to find the right combination of meds that helped me be stable. However, I have never managed to stabilize my anxiety. I just learned coping skills. Some days would be totally fine. Some days would be mildly annoying but endurable. Some days were bad enough that I took my anxiety pill. I saved it for when things were really bad. So now, my anxiety is becoming more frequent and I have more bad days than just mildly annoying. Last week I had a mini-hypomanic episode and DH didn't tell me he thought that was what it was until last night. He wanted to just observe and see if it was a one off. However, last night I had a particularly bad anxiety attack. I can't even describe all my feelings. They were just bad. We read that anxiety can increase as one gets close to a manic episode so now I'm scared. I don't want to go into that. It's so scary! This means my doctor may want to change up my meds because maybe they're not as effective as they have been. I really HATE changing meds. I've had some scary side effects from some of them.
Does anyone with Bipolar or a loved one with Bipolar ever had meds lose efficacy? I've been on this cocktail for so many years and have no side effects. Ugh.
I did manage to get an appointment with my psychiatrist for tomorrow. I'm stunned she had an opening so soon. I'm hoping she keeps my meds the same except maybe add in something for anxiety.
I wrote a letter trying to put into words all my feelings and experiences of the last couple of weeks. It's a page and a half long. I'm just going to take it in and use it as a guide for remembering what I need to tell her about. My DH is encouraging me to do this because frankly I feel she won't be able to help. I'm scared she's going to think I'm stupid and over reacting. DH thinks these thoughts are part of my disorder. They sure seem very real to me!
Edited by Night Elf, 18 July 2017 - 01:30 PM.