Background: We weighed many choices when my oldest started school and decided on Christian school for him. I prayed about the next year because of the cost of schooling, and I decided I would be able to home school him. He is an EXCELLENT student - intelligent and relatively self-motivated.
Fast forward to now. My oldest is in 3rd grade. The past few years have worked well, but ever since January, I have felt pulled and haven't felt the desire to teach like I once did.
My biggest qualms with homeschooling are having all four home with me 24/7 (have 3rd, 1st, 3yo, 2yo) and not having enough down time to do things that *I* like to do - couponing, selling on Ebay, and mystery shopping. I feel like I'm sacrificing my children's education for my own selfish desires. This year, they are doing two co-ops, both of which are drop off and give me some time to run errands on my own. But I find that on the other days, I'm not doing enough to get everything done. And I feel like they're missing out - I have barely done any history and science this whole semester and I feel HORRIBLE about it. Plus, I am SO jealous of others who happily send their kids to public school and have time by themselves, or have older kids out of the house and just have the freedom to do more of what they want.
DH and I are on similar pages when it comes to homeschooling, but he's a little more resistant to public school. He is more concerned that the kids would be conformed and molded to be like the other kids and doesn't want that.
In our area, there are many Christian school but they are either very expensive, or very fundamental.
I'm looking into doing CC with my kids next year, but that means much more expensive (even though it would replace one co-op) and me having LESS time to make some money on the side. The drop off co-ops keep me sane, but I need the accountability of outside projects so that I have a reason to teach.
I still, though, don't have the desire to teach them. When my oldest was in K, thinking about homeschooling stressed me out. I never saw myself as a home schooler - I thought we would be able to find a cheaper Christian school to send them to. But we can't. I think I'm pretty set that once middle school hits, they will go to charter.
I also think my daughter is much harder to school than my son. So maybe considering something different for her only?? I just don't know. She is very easily molded so public school for her could be detrimental.
I just wonder - is it really best for my kids to home school them because it's the lesser of other evils for me? Easiest/cheapest choice?
Any thoughts? How do I know??