I admit, I've been feeling just a scooch whiny about needing to use free resources for almost everything. I mean, it's one thing to say that, in theory, it could be done. It's another thing entirely to actually do it.
Theory and doing it are not the same thing at ALL.
When there is no money for books, other stuff is breaking down, too. It is like the domino effect. and once one thing goes down, the pace of other stuff going down just accelerates exponentially. Before you know it, you are standing in a mess that looks like a bomb went off.
Oddles and oodles of "Free" stuff isn't free anymore, without the proper tools to view it and print it. You don't have time or focus to muck around. What was fun in the past is a burden now.
Sometimes, when you have a little money, or feel safe to charge something, look for bottlenecks that prevent you from accessing "free" stuff. One of my biggest recent charges was to remove a major bottle neck. Maybe I was "Irresponsible" but maybe I wasn't. My stress level dropped instantly. My head got clearer. I had access to lots more.
I still have some smaller bottlenecks, I'm choosing to leave in place for now. I'm working around them the best I can. It is a juggle. Too many balls are in the air. One unexpected issue, and all the balls fall on the floor at once. Today. Sigh! Balls are hitting the floor. I'm realizing some stuff is going to ripple out. Why? Because the rain started earlier than I expected. That is all it took to make a big mess that I am watching build, and can only laugh. I'm hitting all those smaller bottlenecks, one right after the other. I might have to pick one to throw some money at, or end out spending more money in the long run.
Trying to do too much for "free" all at once, sometimes can make a spectacular mess that takes more money to get out of than buying some stuff would have.
It rained earlier than I expected. That is it. and now. It is funny, because I don't have kids. My life can just tumble around me, and people give me a pass they won't and probably can't give moms. If I just say "Oops!" and laugh, people will often laugh along with me.
It rained. That is it. and now.
I need to get off the computer and start dealing with my mess.