I'm still on the fence as to whether I should pursue an adjunct contract for fall or not. On one hand, the idea really, really appeals. I'm spending a lot of time on DD's interests and her education, but, for the last two years, have only done a few brief stints in summer camps or as a workshop clinician in mine. And I miss it. A lot. I miss being in a setting where I actually know what I'm doing most of the time, and I miss being around people who share that interest.
At the same time, I chose not to renew my contract several years back precisely because the time just wasn't working. She was demanding more and more and needed me to be there and be available, not in the same room. Child care was a big problem, and it just was too much stress on me for a job that was, maybe, breaking even financially.
At this point, DD's school, if anything, takes MORE time than it did 2 years ago. She's more independent, but her research interests and working with mentors requires my taking her there and being there. And I can only see that getting worse. I have this fear that I'll pursue a contract, discover that it's completely untenable, and that I'll end up messing up what she's getting now, because, honestly, I can't exactly demand that college professors who are giving of their time to help her work around my schedule. And the whole goal of the conference next week is for her to make more connections with others. Her mentor has a long list of people she wants DD to connect with and meet, many of whom would be well within a reasonable driving range for her to work with them, and some of which are actually at schools close enough that taking classes would be a viable option. I can't see DD being at the point where she won't need me physically there for most of her stuff for several years yet (realistically, getting to any of the local universities would require being able to drive-public transit is non-existent here), and I wouldn't be comfortable dropping her off anyway.
I'm really feeling torn between what I want and what I feel she needs.