RebeccaS Posted February 27, 2013 Share Posted February 27, 2013 :crying: I am so very, very sorry. :crying: :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
besroma Posted February 27, 2013 Share Posted February 27, 2013 I am so very sorry. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Corraleno Posted February 27, 2013 Share Posted February 27, 2013 no words... :crying: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Jackie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Excelsior! Academy Posted February 27, 2013 Share Posted February 27, 2013 I will be praying. Monkey was blessed to have you. You have given her a foundation she will keep with her always. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
happypamama Posted February 27, 2013 Share Posted February 27, 2013 I'm so sorry. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Incognito Posted February 27, 2013 Share Posted February 27, 2013 I am so sorry too. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Unicorn. Posted February 27, 2013 Share Posted February 27, 2013 I'm so sorry. My heart is breaking for you and Monkey. I wish I had the power to change it for you. :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Slartibartfast Posted February 27, 2013 Share Posted February 27, 2013 :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LittleIzumi Posted February 27, 2013 Share Posted February 27, 2013 ((((((((((Hugs))))))))))) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Pamela H in Texas Posted February 27, 2013 Author Share Posted February 27, 2013 I can't believe this is my last day as her mommy. And yet, is it? Seriously, can ANYONE take that from us? My wall of her is awesome. Wish I could share. It shows her when she first got here and couldn't even sit steady through becoming the toddler with the most personality on earth. She is just an awesome little creature. So smart, funny, dramatic. This feels surreal. I couldn't have let go of Kimberly at 20 months either. How can I be expected to just let my littlest daughter go? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Night Elf Posted February 27, 2013 Share Posted February 27, 2013 :grouphug: I'm sorry. :( Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kathryn Posted February 27, 2013 Share Posted February 27, 2013 I'm so sorry. My heart breaks for you. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Scarlett Posted February 27, 2013 Share Posted February 27, 2013 So so sorry. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SproutMamaK Posted February 27, 2013 Share Posted February 27, 2013 I am so so sorry Pamela. My heart just breaks for you. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Starr Posted February 27, 2013 Share Posted February 27, 2013 She'll always be your Monkey. :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Twinmom Posted February 27, 2013 Share Posted February 27, 2013 Praying for you today. I am so, so sorry. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AimeeM Posted February 27, 2013 Share Posted February 27, 2013 I can't help but cry. I am so sorry that you have to go through this. I pray that Monkey is happy and well treated wherever she goes :( Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Pamela H in Texas Posted February 27, 2013 Author Share Posted February 27, 2013 I can't do today.... Hubby is loving on her, playing with her, video'ing her, being dad to her and the other kids. And I just keep CRYING. I find every bit of this, the last breakfast here to games of peekaboo, to be pure TORTURE. (I thought I posted this hours ago. No less true now though...) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Anne in CA Posted February 27, 2013 Share Posted February 27, 2013 My son is a senior this year and the lasts have been killing me all year. It is just beyond my imagination to be having "lasts" with such a young child. I am sure you are really being put through the ringer. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dirty ethel rackham Posted February 27, 2013 Share Posted February 27, 2013 :grouphug: :grouphug: Pamela, I am so sorry. Prayers for you, your family and Monkey. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Catwoman Posted February 27, 2013 Share Posted February 27, 2013 :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Still praying for you guys. :crying: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lil' maids in a row Posted February 27, 2013 Share Posted February 27, 2013 I am so sorry :crying: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reflections Posted February 27, 2013 Share Posted February 27, 2013 :grouphug: :grouphug: I'm so very sorry. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Starr Posted February 27, 2013 Share Posted February 27, 2013 This is so sad. When my dd was 6 months I took her to Germany to visit friends for a couple of weeks. She was nursing and happy with me. But when we arrived home and she woke up to her daddy's face looking down at her she just stared and patted him for hours. It was like she thought she would never see him again. The little ones know. :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MooCow Posted February 27, 2013 Share Posted February 27, 2013 I am so sorry for your pain. So very sorry. :crying: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
8circles Posted February 28, 2013 Share Posted February 28, 2013 I'm so sorry Pamela. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
melbotoast Posted February 28, 2013 Share Posted February 28, 2013 :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
k2bdeutmeyer Posted February 28, 2013 Share Posted February 28, 2013 There are no words.....my heart is broken for you. But, you are strong.....and she is too.....you will make it through. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
aggieamy Posted February 28, 2013 Share Posted February 28, 2013 I am so so sorry. There are no words to really express how sorry I am for you and her. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Miss Peregrine Posted February 28, 2013 Share Posted February 28, 2013 :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
torikei Posted February 28, 2013 Share Posted February 28, 2013 Thinking and praying for you!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Scarlett Posted February 28, 2013 Share Posted February 28, 2013 Praying for your family. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RebeccaS Posted February 28, 2013 Share Posted February 28, 2013 Thinking of you this morning. May God grant you peace as you go through the day. :( Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Unicorn. Posted February 28, 2013 Share Posted February 28, 2013 Thinking of you and Monkey today. :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Pamela H in Texas Posted February 28, 2013 Author Share Posted February 28, 2013 THanks Rebecca (and everyone else). Honestly, this morning was MUCH easier than yesterday. Well, for me. Not hubby. He is doing *really* poorly with this. I think me being able to bawl helps...maybe. The CPS workers got here early which was frustrating as we had JUST gotten her ready and wanted to take pictures and be silly with her. They said something about how smart she was and showing off so I said, "come see this." I took her to the map and said, "show them Texas" and she says it over and over and points. I said, "Where is Canada?" She points. I ask about Nevada. She likes the sound of that one and says it over and over and points to it. It wasn't that I was making her perform so much as showing her what they are taking her from, people who care enough to work with her on a number of things (she knows her shapes, except she'll argue about the hexagon, colors, letters and sounds, a few states, etc). I am the one who did speech, OT, and PT with her. She is where she is because she is that awesome and had US to work with her because we love her so incredibly much. Anyway, as they were walking down the driveway, the caseworker said, "she isn't worried because she is sure she'll be back later." The other says, "but she won't." <sigh> She is currently on a plane. In better news, one worker said something about seeing us on skype. *I* didn't say anything to them about that so the people in NC must have. So maybe they really do intend to. Little Monkey, we love you! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kalypso Posted February 28, 2013 Share Posted February 28, 2013 :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
alef Posted February 28, 2013 Share Posted February 28, 2013 My heart hurts just imagining her inability to comprehend when she doesn't come home to you. Sending thoughts and prayers for her and for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Twigs Posted February 28, 2013 Share Posted February 28, 2013 :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Live2Ride Posted February 28, 2013 Share Posted February 28, 2013 I'm so sorry! :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kathryn Posted February 28, 2013 Share Posted February 28, 2013 :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Heatherwith4 Posted February 28, 2013 Share Posted February 28, 2013 Praying, Pamela. I'm so sorry. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lara in Colo Posted February 28, 2013 Share Posted February 28, 2013 My heart is breaking for you today!! Know that I am holding you close to my heart today. Lara Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Halftime Hope Posted February 28, 2013 Share Posted February 28, 2013 Thinking about you today. {{Pamela}} Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KatieJ Posted February 28, 2013 Share Posted February 28, 2013 JoAnn that was an amazing honest wonderful post you wrote even while your heart is breaking. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Catwoman Posted February 28, 2013 Share Posted February 28, 2013 I can't even begin to imagine what you and your family are going through today, but please know that I am praying for you -- and of course, I'll keep praying for Monkey. :crying: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
catz Posted February 28, 2013 Share Posted February 28, 2013 :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DragonFaerie Posted February 28, 2013 Share Posted February 28, 2013 Thinking of you and sending you strength. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Luckymama Posted February 28, 2013 Share Posted February 28, 2013 :grouphug: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Pamela H in Texas Posted February 28, 2013 Author Share Posted February 28, 2013 Okay, now I'm losing it....seriously losing it. I know part of it is because I'm tired. And I'm so afraid what she is starting to think. NEVER in the last 11½ months have we been separated so long! This is terrible. My poor baby not understanding where we are or why she can't have us. I know she probably is still in her "aren't I so cute?" moments with her; but the caseworker says she lasts about 2 hours at visits (with her bioparents). A couple hours and here she's been gone SEVEN. But my heart hurts for us too. And country music is very very very sad. Love Without End, Amen anyone? How about The Dance? Looking back on the memory of The dance we shared beneath the stars above For a moment all the world was right How could I have known you'd ever say goodbye And now I'm glad I didn't know The way it all would end the way it all would go Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain But I'd of had to miss the dance Holding you I held everything For a moment wasn't I the king But if I'd only known how the king would fall Hey who's to say you know I might have changed it all And now I'm glad I didn't know The way it all would end the way it all would go Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain But I'd of had to miss the dance I love her so incredibly much. I just want my sweet baby home, safe and sound and bonded and ready to run the world. I hate that she may be so confused and hurt and scared. I wish I could have protected her. :( Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Miss Mousie Posted February 28, 2013 Share Posted February 28, 2013 It's so heart-wrenching ... and I'm so sorry. :grouphug: :crying: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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